Feeling kind of off....

So, I've been feeling kind of off lately. Actually, this is my blog, so I guess if I can't be honest here, then I can't be honest anywhere, right? I've been feeling off for a long time now. I have recently found out that being bi-polar runs in parts of my family....just sharing that information....I don't think I am bi-polar, LOL! But I wonder sometimes if I might suffer from depression. It's hard to know something like that, though....I mean, do I suffer from depression or am I just sad? Does everyone else feel the way I feel? Is this normal, or is something wrong with me? I don't know.

Well, again, it has been a year (or so) since my last post. I have been a VERY busy girl in that time. I am still writing and have managed to continue REFUSING to go back to the "brick and mortar" business world, so that is good. I was also able to move to Florida for a while, although that did not go as well as I had hoped. I am now back in my normal area (although not quite back home) and trying to get everything back on track. You will definitely be hearing more from me now that things have settled down.

I would like to introduce you all to a new project I have been working on that I hope will be successful. I hope you will all take a minute to go to my new business site and check it out...and pass the word along to those you know!

www.JandCMarketplace.com is a new business venture that I am involved in and am hoping to make a roaring success out of! :-) My goal in this business is to be the one place you can go to find anything you are looking for. If I am unable to offer it to you on my site, then I will help you to find it somewhere else.

Please take a sec to give it a look! If you have any suggestions or comments, I would love to hear them!

Thanks, everyone! I miss you all and will be back soon! Hopefully I can get caught up on READING blogs, too! LOL!

Terrible Twos my ass! More like Terrible Threes!

Okay, so in the middle of my "work from home" jobs, I have a regular job babysitting my future niece (We will call her Elizabeth). Her mom just got a job tutoring at a school about an hour away, and she works five days a week. On Tuesday and Thursday, my future niece goes to a pre-school type program, but I keep her on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

Elizabeth is an absolutely PRECIOUS little girl...or at least, she used to be! LOL! Now, she has been three for almost eight months, and she has found her attitude. She is constantly asking questions, which is not a bad thing...I am glad she is inquisitive! I really am! The problem comes in once you answer her question. She ALWAYS argues with you, no matter what your answer is! Even with subjects that a three year old can not POSSIBLY even UNDERSTAND! No matter what you say or do, she always has an argument about it! She was such an angel when she was two! I mean, she was a little stinker. That is just her personality. But this arguing thing only started after she turned three.

In addition to the arguing issue, Elizabeth also has a habit of saying "what?" and making you repeat yourself three or four times if she doesn't like what you are saying to her! It's not that she doesn't hear you....it's that she doesn't WANT to hear you!

*SIGH* Where did my sweet little girl go? And when will she be back?! LOL!

My other future niece, who is nine, has also found a little bit of attitude (We will call her Natalie). She sometimes acts as though she is 13, not nine! But Natalie's attitude is so much easier to handle for some reason than Elizabeth's!!

Oh well....I love them both dearly, both as a connection to my R, who is so far away from me right now, and as the sweet and lovable little girls they are (most of the time! LOL!).

But does anyone have any idea when Elizabeth will get over this arguing stage???

Hello to all my faithful followers...

Hello everyone, from the land of Cassey!


I have been going through some stuff lately...so let's talk about it.

First of all, as you all know, I have decided to be a writer. I will talk much more about this on my job blog, but for those of you who only follow this one, I wanted to give a little update. So here goes. I'm not rich, yet. Actually....I'm pretty damned broke! LOL! But it's not so bad. I have taken on a roommate and we split the expenses....but that is a whole nother story! The point is, while I am always broke and that sucks, I also do not have to go to work in an office every day with a boss that I hate doing a job that I hate...I'm pretty happy. Moneywise, so far, it stinks. On the happiness rating for my job - I'm rating pretty high. To be continued in my job blog...
Now, on to the roommate. He's just a kid, really. He is 18 years old and he drives me up the wall. He is messy, often inconsiderate, regularly bitchy (he's gay and a little on the flamboyant side). There are very few things around the house that are his responsibility. He is responsible for mowing the grass during the summer (because, gay or not, he is STILL a guy!), taking out the garbage (again, GUY!), and washing the dishes (I can't throw this one into the stereotypically guy type chore category, but since I do ALL the cooking in the house, I feel that him doing the dishes is fair!). He very rarely does these on his own without me having to throw a little bitch fit of my own.

I try to be patient.

He IS a kid, and he has never lived on his own before. So I throw out these little "reminders". I will say, for example, on a Sunday night, "Hey, don't forget that the garbage runs in the morning." And he will say, "Okay." So I will sequester myself in my room with my beloved laptop, t.v., cigs, and a glass of iced tea to dedicate myself to yet another night of alternately writing and searching for better paying writing jobs...giving him the benefit of the doubt that THIS TIME, when I wake up, the garbage will be outside waiting for those nice men in the blue coveralls to come and take it away.

Nope.

Never happens.
Garbage is overflowing the trash can, so I have started putting trash into a separate trash bag hoping that he will see it and get the hint. Every dish in the house is dirty, so I have quit cooking in hopes that starvation may clue him in on the problem. Yet....still nothing happens. That is when I have to start getting ugly about it. I do not like this side of myself, but unfortunately this is the only side that he will actually listen to.


Of course, I have to say that NOW, he is finally paying his share in the house. I pay the rent, and he pays the bills. Which I believe is fair, because the rent comes to a much higher amount than our bills do and because he did not pay any bills or anything else for the first several months he lived here. Of course, seeing it now written out in black and white.....I think I may be screwing myself! LOL! But it is working for now....

Hmmm....I see that I haven't written anything about my Ryan lately. Well, things on the relationship front could NOT be better! This man is so supportive and wonderful. Even being in Florida (STILL...UGH!), just talking to him on the phone can make everything in my life seem manageable. He believes in me and loves me and I have no idea what I would do without him in my life.

Okay....it has just occurred to me that it is 5:00 a.m..........IN THE MORNING!!! GRR! I really wanted to update all three of my blogs tonight. Guess it's not going to happen.

So, I am going to stop here, then post another update here (finishing what I didn't get to say here already, lol!), then I will go update the other two.

Thanks, to everyone who has stayed loyal!

Link to My New Blog and a Preview

Hello all,

Here is a link to my new blog: Money Isn't Everything - The Journey

I would also like to give you a sneak peek, so here is the first post of that blog.

The Beginning

Well, I have done it. I have finally decided that I am going to work from home. I am going to make a full time living by doing what I love to do best...write.

For those of you who have read my other blogs, you know that I have struggled for the last couple of years with jobs and bosses and my own identity and desires. I am through with all of that. Finally, the realization has hit home that money is not everything. It does not matter if my paycheck is twice the size of any paycheck I have ever received....if I am not happy.

I have not been happy. I have not been happy for a very long time. In fact, I would probably go as far as saying that I have been miserable with my life for about the last six years...since my mother died. Now, don't get me wrong, I will never regret doing the things I had to do after she passed or taking the road that I had to take. But now it is time that I take my own road...one that will hopefully lead to the happiness that I have been unable to find for so long.

It is odd to look back at the person I was before her death and the person I am now and see the differences. Some of those differences are good, but I also see that a lot of them are not. That is not what I want in my life.

So this is the beginning. The beginning of my search for the happiness I lost so many years ago...

I hope you take the time to read it!

Thanksgiving is over!

Well, I have been gone for another two months, lol, but I am back again. I have quite the old job, AGAIN, and am working from home full time. My old boss made that a very easy decision for me, since she cut my pay and my hours to the point that I could not make ends meet....then she withheld my paycheck for weeks (and sometimes months) at a time.

I am still not making the money I would like to be making working from home, but I am building up my client base right now and hope that things will be looking WAY up by the first of the year.

I have started working on the weightloss blog again, for those of you who are interested. I will be putting some interesting facts in there as well as some helpful articles.

I am also started a new blog to discuss the trials and tribulations of working from home. I love doing it, but there are just as many downfalls as there are good points.

I will definitely be around much more often, now that I am not spending 10 to 12 hours a day at a job that was paying me next to nothing, with a boss who could not even show her employees a little appreciation for their work and dedication.

Thanks for sticking with me, everyone!

OH MY LORD....FIVE MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my lord....it has been five months since I have posted in my blog!!!!!!! That is CRAZY! But, to be fair, it has been a crazy five months, lol. I have gone back to work for that horrible woman and then quit again several times, and I have actually started exploring writing possibilities. I have been writing web content for a while for a couple of different companies and I think I am ready to get serious about my writing.

So......how has every body been??? I haven't been able to read blogs anymore than I have been able to write in mine! LOL! But I promise I will keep up with it a LOT better now!

Love you all, and thanks for all of the support you have all shown me!