Continuing the Journey

Feeling kind of off....

2011-05-28T19:36:00.003-05:00

So, I've been feeling kind of off lately. Actually, this is my blog, so I guess if I can't be honest here, then I can't be honest anywhere, right? I've been feeling off for a long time now. I have recently found out that being bi-polar runs in parts of my family....just sharing that information....I don't think I am bi-polar, LOL! But I wonder sometimes if I might suffer from depression. It's hard to know something like that, though....I mean, do I suffer from depression or am I just sad? Does everyone else feel the way I feel? Is this normal, or is something wrong with me? I don't know.

2011-05-06T17:30:00.004-05:00

Well, again, it has been a year (or so) since my last post. I have been a VERY busy girl in that time. I am still writing and have managed to continue REFUSING to go back to the "brick and mortar" business world, so that is good. I was also able to move to Florida for a while, although that did not go as well as I had hoped. I am now back in my normal area (although not quite back home) and trying to get everything back on track. You will definitely be hearing more from me now that things have settled down.

I would like to introduce you all to a new project I have been working on that I hope will be successful. I hope you will all take a minute to go to my new business site and check it out...and pass the word along to those you know!

www.JandCMarketplace.com is a new business venture that I am involved in and am hoping to make a roaring success out of! :-) My goal in this business is to be the one place you can go to find anything you are looking for. If I am unable to offer it to you on my site, then I will help you to find it somewhere else.

Please take a sec to give it a look! If you have any suggestions or comments, I would love to hear them!

Thanks, everyone! I miss you all and will be back soon! Hopefully I can get caught up on READING blogs, too! LOL!

Terrible Twos my ass! More like Terrible Threes!

2010-04-07T10:29:00.002-05:00

Okay, so in the middle of my "work from home" jobs, I have a regular job babysitting my future niece (We will call her Elizabeth). Her mom just got a job tutoring at a school about an hour away, and she works five days a week. On Tuesday and Thursday, my future niece goes to a pre-school type program, but I keep her on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

Elizabeth is an absolutely PRECIOUS little girl...or at least, she used to be! LOL! Now, she has been three for almost eight months, and she has found her attitude. She is constantly asking questions, which is not a bad thing...I am glad she is inquisitive! I really am! The problem comes in once you answer her question. She ALWAYS argues with you, no matter what your answer is! Even with subjects that a three year old can not POSSIBLY even UNDERSTAND! No matter what you say or do, she always has an argument about it! She was such an angel when she was two! I mean, she was a little stinker. That is just her personality. But this arguing thing only started after she turned three.

In addition to the arguing issue, Elizabeth also has a habit of saying "what?" and making you repeat yourself three or four times if she doesn't like what you are saying to her! It's not that she doesn't hear you....it's that she doesn't WANT to hear you!

*SIGH* Where did my sweet little girl go? And when will she be back?! LOL!

My other future niece, who is nine, has also found a little bit of attitude (We will call her Natalie). She sometimes acts as though she is 13, not nine! But Natalie's attitude is so much easier to handle for some reason than Elizabeth's!!

Oh well....I love them both dearly, both as a connection to my R, who is so far away from me right now, and as the sweet and lovable little girls they are (most of the time! LOL!).

But does anyone have any idea when Elizabeth will get over this arguing stage???

Hello to all my faithful followers...

2010-03-30T01:28:00.003-05:00

Hello everyone, from the land of Cassey!

I have been going through some stuff lately...so let's talk about it.

First of all, as you all know, I have decided to be a writer. I will talk much more about this on my job blog, but for those of you who only follow this one, I wanted to give a little update. So here goes. I'm not rich, yet. Actually....I'm pretty damned broke! LOL! But it's not so bad. I have taken on a roommate and we split the expenses....but that is a whole nother story! The point is, while I am always broke and that sucks, I also do not have to go to work in an office every day with a boss that I hate doing a job that I hate...I'm pretty happy. Moneywise, so far, it stinks. On the happiness rating for my job - I'm rating pretty high. To be continued in my job blog...
Now, on to the roommate. He's just a kid, really. He is 18 years old and he drives me up the wall. He is messy, often inconsiderate, regularly bitchy (he's gay and a little on the flamboyant side). There are very few things around the house that are his responsibility. He is responsible for mowing the grass during the summer (because, gay or not, he is STILL a guy!), taking out the garbage (again, GUY!), and washing the dishes (I can't throw this one into the stereotypically guy type chore category, but since I do ALL the cooking in the house, I feel that him doing the dishes is fair!). He very rarely does these on his own without me having to throw a little bitch fit of my own.

I try to be patient.

He IS a kid, and he has never lived on his own before. So I throw out these little "reminders". I will say, for example, on a Sunday night, "Hey, don't forget that the garbage runs in the morning." And he will say, "Okay." So I will sequester myself in my room with my beloved laptop, t.v., cigs, and a glass of iced tea to dedicate myself to yet another night of alternately writing and searching for better paying writing jobs...giving him the benefit of the doubt that THIS TIME, when I wake up, the garbage will be outside waiting for those nice men in the blue coveralls to come and take it away.

Nope.

Never happens.
Garbage is overflowing the trash can, so I have started putting trash into a separate trash bag hoping that he will see it and get the hint. Every dish in the house is dirty, so I have quit cooking in hopes that starvation may clue him in on the problem. Yet....still nothing happens. That is when I have to start getting ugly about it. I do not like this side of myself, but unfortunately this is the only side that he will actually listen to.

Of course, I have to say that NOW, he is finally paying his share in the house. I pay the rent, and he pays the bills. Which I believe is fair, because the rent comes to a much higher amount than our bills do and because he did not pay any bills or anything else for the first several months he lived here. Of course, seeing it now written out in black and white.....I think I may be screwing myself! LOL! But it is working for now....

Hmmm....I see that I haven't written anything about my Ryan lately. Well, things on the relationship front could NOT be better! This man is so supportive and wonderful. Even being in Florida (STILL...UGH!), just talking to him on the phone can make everything in my life seem manageable. He believes in me and loves me and I have no idea what I would do without him in my life.

Okay....it has just occurred to me that it is 5:00 a.m..........IN THE MORNING!!! GRR! I really wanted to update all three of my blogs tonight. Guess it's not going to happen.

So, I am going to stop here, then post another update here (finishing what I didn't get to say here already, lol!), then I will go update the other two.

Thanks, to everyone who has stayed loyal!

Link to My New Blog and a Preview

2009-11-30T22:09:00.004-06:00

Hello all,

Here is a link to my new blog: Money Isn't Everything - The Journey

I would also like to give you a sneak peek, so here is the first post of that blog.

The Beginning

Well, I have done it. I have finally decided that I am going to work from home. I am going to make a full time living by doing what I love to do best...write.

For those of you who have read my other blogs, you know that I have struggled for the last couple of years with jobs and bosses and my own identity and desires. I am through with all of that. Finally, the realization has hit home that money is not everything. It does not matter if my paycheck is twice the size of any paycheck I have ever received....if I am not happy.

I have not been happy. I have not been happy for a very long time. In fact, I would probably go as far as saying that I have been miserable with my life for about the last six years...since my mother died. Now, don't get me wrong, I will never regret doing the things I had to do after she passed or taking the road that I had to take. But now it is time that I take my own road...one that will hopefully lead to the happiness that I have been unable to find for so long.

It is odd to look back at the person I was before her death and the person I am now and see the differences. Some of those differences are good, but I also see that a lot of them are not. That is not what I want in my life.

So this is the beginning. The beginning of my search for the happiness I lost so many years ago...

I hope you take the time to read it!

Thanksgiving is over!

2009-11-30T15:05:00.003-06:00

Well, I have been gone for another two months, lol, but I am back again. I have quite the old job, AGAIN, and am working from home full time. My old boss made that a very easy decision for me, since she cut my pay and my hours to the point that I could not make ends meet....then she withheld my paycheck for weeks (and sometimes months) at a time.

I am still not making the money I would like to be making working from home, but I am building up my client base right now and hope that things will be looking WAY up by the first of the year.

I have started working on the weightloss blog again, for those of you who are interested. I will be putting some interesting facts in there as well as some helpful articles.

I am also started a new blog to discuss the trials and tribulations of working from home. I love doing it, but there are just as many downfalls as there are good points.

I will definitely be around much more often, now that I am not spending 10 to 12 hours a day at a job that was paying me next to nothing, with a boss who could not even show her employees a little appreciation for their work and dedication.

Thanks for sticking with me, everyone!

OH MY LORD....FIVE MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-03T12:59:00.002-05:00

Oh my lord....it has been five months since I have posted in my blog!!!!!!! That is CRAZY! But, to be fair, it has been a crazy five months, lol. I have gone back to work for that horrible woman and then quit again several times, and I have actually started exploring writing possibilities. I have been writing web content for a while for a couple of different companies and I think I am ready to get serious about my writing.

So......how has every body been??? I haven't been able to read blogs anymore than I have been able to write in mine! LOL! But I promise I will keep up with it a LOT better now!

Love you all, and thanks for all of the support you have all shown me!

My first conference call!!!!

2009-04-02T19:19:00.002-05:00

Hey there....Just checking in. I guess I should clarify to everyone that I walked out last week on Tuesday, not yesterday. I was just re reading that last post and realized that it made it sound like I just walked out yesterday, lol! I walked out on Tuesday and then spent Wednesday, Thursday, and part of Friday trying to consider all of my options and figure out what I REALLY wanted to do, and what I COULD do.

I decided that I REALLY want to give the working from home as a loan processor thing a shot. I called the lady who was trying to hire me (Sandy), and told her on last Friday that I wanted to do it. I have decided that now is the time to really do what I want to do. I mean, what can it hurt? I can give it two months, and if it doesn't work out, then I will move on and get a regular office job. But I really want to do this. I have wanted to work from home for years, and have never been able to find a job that wasn't a scam. So now I have this opportunity, and I want to take it. So I have made lots of phone calls to introduce myself to the other loan officers (besides Sandy, of course, lol), and I had my first conference call this past Tuesday.

SO let me tell you about this conference call. It started at 10 a.m. I woke up at 9:45 a.m. I let my dog outside, I went to the bathroom, and I went back into my bedroom. I then got my notebook out, and my pen. I then smoked a cigarette and read my book until 9:59 a.m. At 9:59 a.m., I dialed into the conference call. I then spent the next two hours listening to what was being said, smoking cigarettes, taking notes....all from the comfort of my bed, in my pajamas!!! How flipping cool is that? LOL! I also made contacts with some of the other loan officers, and I have already been promised three files! Plus, Sandy should have at least another five this month that she wants me to work on, PLUS everyone who works under Sandy will be sending their files to me, too! I am SOOO excited about this!

Anyway, like I said, I'm just checking in and giving ya'll an update....Wish me luck!

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-01T16:21:00.002-05:00

I did it! I quit! I just walked out!!!!

Well, I didn't JUST walk out... I did say a couple of things that I probably shouldn't have. But compared to all of the things that I WANTED to say, I thought I was pretty grown up about it! LOL! Okay, here's what happened:

First, she spent the ENTIRE morning yelling and bitching at me (but that's normal, lol!). Then she got a phone call. The phone call was from the internet company that provides service to her house. (Let me insert here that my first job at the company where I was a LOAN PROCESSOR was to get internet service set up at her house.) They called and asked to speak to me (since I was the person who set it up), because the bill had not been paid. So she called me into the office and said "Do you have internet at your house?" And I said, "No." (And I DON'T!) and she said "Uh-huh." So I started to walk out of the office, and she said "NO, you stay RIGHT there!" Then she got back on the phone and said, "What is the billing address on that account?" (She had them on speaker phone.) They told her the work address, so she said, "And what is the address where the service is set up?" And they told her the work address again. Then she asked me who the company was. So I told her that they were the company that provided service to her house. She said, "Oh. Okay, go tell Sam to come here." She HONESTLY thought that I was getting internet service at my house and billing it to the company! So at that point, she had already questioned my intelligence and my job performance....now she was questioning my integrity! I was walking a fine line at that point. Then she went back into her office and proceeded to degrade me and my job performance to one of our lenders for twenty minutes. Then she called me into her office and berated me for almost 30 minutes, including about why I had not faxed what are called "hard numbers" to our lender (hard numbers that SHE had created and not told me were done), then she said the thing that was my final straw. She said "I have 100 resumes for secretaries who would love to have this job and communicate with me, and do your job with the intelligence that you don't." That was it for me. I was done. I told her maybe she needed to call one of those people, and I walked out of her office while she was bitching at me. She said "HELLO?!" I said, "Marci, I am done, I quit, I can't take it anymore." She said "That's fine, just great, you do what you have to do." And I said, "And you can fax your hard numbers yourself." She said "I would love to!" And I said, on my way out the door, "And you can kiss my ass while you are at it." And I walked out. I was crying so hard when I got in my car that I couldn't even drive. It was a very dark, rainy day, but after I sat in my car for a couple of minutes, the clouds parted and the sun shone down into my car....lol! It was like a movie or something! And at that point, I quit crying, and drove away. I have felt SO much better about life ever since!

I have made the decision to take the other loan processing job that I was offered that I talked about in my last post. The one working from home. I have got everything figured out to where I will be good for the next two months with no paycheck (although I hope to have a paycheck much sooner than that! LOL). I am getting my income tax back, and it will be enough to pay my rent and bills for the next two months, plus get a new laptop, because I am going to need one. I am also watching a friend's daughter instead of her going to daycare during the week, so I have a little bit of income every week. I am so excited about all of this! I talked to a few of the people that I am working with already, and I have been promised three files by the end of the week, which is MUCH sooner than I expected. AND, my name has been added to the employee roster on the company website already!!! How COOL is that?! I am SOOO excited! I feel like this is the EXACT thing that I was supposed to do at this EXACT time in my life!!!

Thanks for listening! Wish me luck!!!!

Calling all readers and advice givers....

2009-03-23T10:31:00.003-05:00

Okay, I have tried really hard to stay away from posts about my job, because for a while those are the only posts I was doing. But I am to my wits end at this point, so I have to blog about it.

I have never been more unhappy in my life. I have taken verbal abuse, name calling, screaming, constant derrogatory comments about my intelligence, and various threats regarding my pay for the last 3 and a half months. I have cried, I have tried to talk to her reasonably about why I can't work this way, I have tried to ignore it, I have tried to laugh it off, and I have tried giving as good as I got and yelling back at her. Nothing seems to make any difference.

The sad thing is, I really love my job. People come to us who have never owned a home before, who have bad credit and low income, who have no one else to turn to. I love the feeling I get from helping these people to own their own home for their family. It is an amazing feeling to know that I can help someone like that. But I can't handle being treated the way I am.

I have started taking two, sometimes three, pills a day for my acid reflux now. I am always tired. I moved in December, and still haven't gotten everything unpacked from my house, because I just don't have the energy to do it. I constantly have an upset stomach, and when it isn't upset, all I do is eat and smoke. I never go to Kelly's house anymore, I don't do anything but sit at my house. I haven't even written to Ryan in months. I cry almost every day, whether it is at work while I am taking a smoke break, or after work when I get home.

I got a job offer doing practically the same thing I am doing now, just on the lender's side, not the buyer's side. I would be working from home, and I would be making commission, but on average based on past performance, it would be more than I am making now. The problem is that it would take 30 to 45 days with no income before I got up and running. I would give ANYTHING to have the chance to do this, but I don't know how I could possibly go that long with no income. I am working on a plan...but I don't know if it is going to work.

I just don't know what else to do at this point. I can't handle going through this anymore, but I can't be unemployed or not have income, either. *sigh* I don't know what to do..... Any advice? It would be GREATLY appreciated!

An update for everyone who knows Kelly....

2009-03-12T16:40:00.002-05:00

For everyone who knows Kelly over at Green Olives and Pickle Juice.....

As I am sure you know already, her biological dad passed away on Monday. She has her adoptive dad and her biological dad. Her biological dad lived in Arizona and had a heart attack Monday.

I feel for her, having just lost my own biological dad, and wish her all my sympathies for her loss. She found out right before we left work on Monday, and she was a wreck. I took her home and stayed with her until her husband got home from work. She left on Tuesday afternoon on a plane going to Arizona. I have talked to her every night since. She was going to come back on Friday, but the service isn't until 2:30 p.m. Friday, and the last plane on her airline leaving Phoenix leaves at 5:30 p.m., so she isn't going to make that flight. She is going to be leaving Phoenix at 5:00 a.m. instead.

She seems to be doing okay. She is helping her step-mother pack the house up, because Marilynn (the step-mother) says she can't stay in that house with him gone. So Kelly is keeping busy, and that is the best thing for her right now I think. She will call me again tonight and I will update you all again tomorrow.

Please keep her and her family in your thoughts and prayers. Between Kelly and I, we have had more deaths in our families in the past five years (starting in 2003 with my mother) than anyone else we know. Death is a hard thing to deal with, and a hard thing to get past.... We all do it in our own way and our own time. Kelly is a lot stronger than she gives herself credit for, and she will get through this. It will NEVER be okay....I always hate it when people tell me that it is....but it will get easier.....

Love you Kelly!

Oh my goodness! How cute!

2009-03-12T16:25:00.005-05:00

Oh my goodness! Look what was in my inbox today!!!

How absolutely adorable is that?! Now first of all, who would create a pig that small just for the heck of it? I don't know, but since they did, I want one! The little snippet that was in my email with the pics said that they are really easy to house train, and you should always get two, not just one, because then they have company. I could handle having two of these! They are so flipping adorable!

I don't know how well that would go over with my dog, though. LOL! Can you imagine being the only pet in a house and all of a sudden having to share your space and your owner with two pigs that are WAY to tiny to really be pigs? LOL! My puppy would probably bust a gut laughing at these two little guys! She poops bigger than these fella's! I can just see the look on her face now....I can hear her thoughts....."Um...Ma.....if this is supper, I think you got the wrong kind, cause this is still moving!" "Mom, seriously.....these aren't even big enough to chew on! What good are they?!"

*sigh*...but they are cute, aren't they?!

EVERYBODY COME LOOK AT MY NEW LAYOUT!!!

2009-03-12T15:49:00.004-05:00

Oh how gorgeous is this!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Kori, you are AMAZING! I absolutely LOVE IT! I am just blown away! I can't believe you took my little vague description and turned it into this!

EVERYBODY COME LOOK AT MY NEW LAYOUT!!!

New Layout Coming Soon!!!

2009-03-06T16:21:00.004-06:00

I am SOOO excited! Princess is designing me a new layout!

I have wanted a new layout for a long time, but I am NO good at that stuff, and I couldn't find one that really just grabbed me. So then Kelly got a new layout designed for her by Princess, and it was AWESOME! So I got in touch with Princess via her blog (which is linked on her name above in the first sentence. Go check it out!), and BEGGED her to use her amazing talents to design a layout for me! And she has DONE IT! There are a couple of things that I asked her to tweak for me (just personal preference kinds of things, not technical things, lol!), and hopefully I will be getting it soon!

I am SOOO excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oops!

2009-02-27T18:00:00.002-06:00

It DID post it! It just waited a little while...lol! Nevermind!

This SUCKS!!!!

2009-02-27T17:10:00.004-06:00

This SUCKS! I just did a WHOLE HUGE post on the thing that Princess tagged me on, and I published it, and it didn't publish and now it is GONE!!! Not even saved in my drafts!!! Just GONE! So, now I have 45 minutes to do it again, and try to remember all the witty smart things I said! LOL!

WHOO HOO! I was tagged!

2009-02-27T10:46:00.000-06:00

Okay, how exciting is this?! I was tagged, so I have something else to talk about!!! Big huge hugs and thanks to Princess!!!!

So here's the deal:
"Your ship has sunk. You have, of course, been stranded on adeserted island. You have salvaged a copy of the King James Version of the Bibleand a copy of the complete works of Shakespeare. Nothing else.
“The very next day you find one of those Arabian Lamps in the sand. Of course, you rub it and, of course, a rather grumpy Genie appears.
“‘Let’s get this straight - there is a recession going on. There are restrictions on the three wishes now. I don’t do water or air transport now so no boats, planes or magic carpets. As for electronics, forget it. There isn’t the infrastructure on this island.
“‘I can let you have one book and I mean one VOLUME, one essential item and one luxury item. Now hurry up and make your choices, I have to get to those five other islands you are going nominate."

MY BOOK:

K, this one is pretty self explanatory, lol! So I am not going to explain it, I'm just going to let it stand the way it is! :-)

MY ESSENTIAL:

This is an AMAZING invention!!!! I DEFINITELY would have to have one of these on my island! AND, if it is not too much stress on my Genie, I would like to request an unending supply of toothpaste! This is the coolest thing! The toothpaste is INSIDE THE HANDLE!!! So you don't have to carry both, and it's just right there!!! COOL! I am SOO gonna have to get one of these, even if I am not on an island!

MY LUXURY:

I am with Princess on this one. I have GOT to have a bed. My back couldn't take sleeping on the ground, and I need a nice comfy bed! My only difference is that I need THIS bed, because it has the canopy over the top and the drapes, which are thick and lined on the inside with black fabric so that no light comes through! LOL, actually, I think I need one of these in my house, not just on my island! LOL!

Well, those are my wishes! Thanks again to Princess for tagging me on this one! Now, it's my job to tag five other people! Here we go!

1. Kelly - because I NEVER get to tag her before anyone else does, but I think I actually got it this time!

2. Casie - because she is new to blogger land, and she needs to be tagged, and maybe some of you will want to follow her as well!

3. Carrie - because I feel really bad because I am SOOOO busy that I NEVER get a chance to read her blog anymore, or anyone elses for that matter, and she is SOO great!

4. Terri - because, again, I don't ever have time to read her blog, and she is GREAT too!

5. Kadie - because I am SOOOO curious as to what this weird but loveable child will choose!

So there it is! My post, and my tags!

Love you all!

Be back tonight!

2009-02-26T17:42:00.001-06:00

Okay, I have to go home, but I will blog tonight, because I was tagged by Princess, and I have to blog about it!!! :-)

HMMM....I have noticed something about my blogs....

2009-02-25T16:52:00.001-06:00

I have noticed lately that all I do is bitch about work in my blogs.....I'm gonna have to come up with something else to say, lol! Ya'll are going to get really sick of listening to me bitch!!!

OMG! This is going to be a HORRIBLE day!

2009-02-18T11:58:00.002-06:00

I can just see it now. I honestly don't have the time to be blogging right now, but I am cutting out a few minutes to do it.

Things are so crazy right now at work! I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get everything done before my boss gets back in the office, which will be in about 30 minutes or so.

NOTHING is going right with ANY of my files at work....they are all so screwed up and not working right that I am SO ready to just throw them all out the window!

GRR!!! Deep breaths, DEEEEEEP breaths!!! Cross your fingers and wish me luck, because I KNOW that the boss is going to yell at me when she gets back to the office, no matter what I do, she is going to yell at me, so I have pretty much resigned myself to it! LOL!

Sick Sick Sick....

2009-02-16T14:38:00.002-06:00

This was me for the last week. Add a lot of crying, coughing, and sleeping to this pic, and you will know what my week was like. I have been SOOO sick! Kelly kept most of you updated, I am sure, lol....I know that she put a HORRIBLE pic of me in the ER on her blog......I WILL get even with her for that....lol! But I am at work today, feeling better....not great, but much better than I DID feel, so that's good. Unfortunately, I missed my trip. All I did was cry this weekend, every time I thought about the fact that I was supposed to be in Florida, but I was sick in bed in Texas. I still want to cry every time I think about it.

Temper Tantrum Tuesday (On Wednesday)

2009-02-04T13:50:00.003-06:00

I know, I know....I am a day late and a dollar short.....Today is NOT Tuesday, it is Wednesday. So WHY am I doing a Temper Tantrum Tuesday on Wednesday? Well, I have to confess....it's because I was too mad to blog yesterday. I never thought I could say that, but it's true. Hmmm.....but it IS Wednesday....

How about Whining Wednesday? I can do that. LOL! Okay, let the whining begin!

My boss, as you all know, as a bonus, was supposed to give me $500 toward my trip to go see Ryan in Florida on the 13th. I know what you are thinking....yes, today IS the 4th. Yes, there are LESS THAN TEN DAYS before I get on an airplane and leave the big state of Texas on my way to the much smaller state of Florida, where my beloved fiance lives. Let me repeat that: LESS THAN TEN DAYS! I closed my four loans for the month, they have even all funded (which means that she has her money!)! Yet....wait....something is missing.....what is it.....OH RIGHT....my plane ticket! I still don't have one. Or a car reservation, or a hotel reservation. Yes, I spent a lot of time and aggravation and patience online until I got the ABSOLUTE BEST deals possible...since she said she would give me $500 toward my trip, I wanted to get the most for my money. So I found a plane ticket for $275, a car for $121, and a hotel for $113. Which means that the $500 she is giving me for a bonus covers my ENTIRE trip, except for less than ten dollars of it! Then....yesterday.....my plane ticket went up. Now, today, it has gone back down (for now), but that is ENTIRELY not the point! The point that I have been TRYING to make with all of my rambling is this: I STILL DON'T HAVE MY PLANE TICKET, CAR RESERVATION, OR HOTEL RESERVATION!!!! She knows that I am leaving next Friday. She knows that the closer we get to my departure date, the more the plane ticket will go up. She KNOWS that she OWES me this bonus!!! So WHY.....please, if anyone knows the answer to this question feel free to share.....has she not taken care of this?!?!?!?!

*sigh* I am so upset about all of this....I don't know why she can't just stand by her word. I stood by mine, and I closed those four loans for her in January. I earned this trip, and I am GOING on this trip whether she pays for it or not. BUT, if she DOESN'T, then I won't be coming back to this job after I get back. I can't work for someone who doesn't keep their word to me.

Frugal Fridays!

2009-01-30T14:22:00.003-06:00

Okay, I am new to this whole "Frugal Fridays" thing, so hopefully ya'll will give me a little leeway, because I am not sure how it works! LOL! But I am trying! This is a blog carnival that I started reading on Vicki's website. She's a pretty frugal lady! All of the tips I have read so far are great! Click her name and it will take you to the Frugal Friday Carnival page where the rules and regulations are!

So my Frugal Friday tip is this:

If you have a kid who lives away from you (going to college or whatever) that you send money to....do NOT send Western Union or Money Gram! That is SOOO expensive! I have recently learned about this prepaid debit card you can get from Wal-Mart that can be used as a debit or credit card because it has a Visa logo on it! It is called the Walmart Moneycard Student Edition.

When you buy it, it comes with one temporary card. You then have to go home and activate it online. When you activate it, they will ask you for your information and then what name you want on the second card. You can get your name on one and your child's on another. Then you send the one with your child's name on it to them once you get it in the mail. When you add money to YOUR card, they can access it on THEIR card! Pretty cool, huh? :-)

Well, that's my Frugal Friday tip for the day! Hope it helps someone!

One down, one to go!

2009-01-30T12:17:00.002-06:00

Well, we closed one loan this morning! We have one more to close this afternoon and then Kelly and I get our bonuses!!!!! I cannot TELL you how excited I am about this!

So I have been looking for a plane ticket from Dallas, TX, to Tallahassee, FL. My bonus is $500 to go toward my trip. I want that $500 to cover MOST if not ALL of my trip, so I am trying to be as cost aware as I can be. I mean, why should I get a $500 plane ticket then have to pay for the rental car and hotel myself? If I can get the plane ticket, rental car, AND part of my hotel for $500, then I am getting the MOST for my bonus, right?

So I have found a plane ticket on Orbitz for $275, including taxes and fees. AND it leaves for Florida on Friday morning, just like I want it to, and it leaves returning to Dallas on Monday evening, just like I want it to. I have found a rental car deal for $122, including taxes and fees. So that is basically $400. That would mean that I should have $100 left to use toward paying for my hotel. AND, since I am cheap, lol, and I REFUSE to pay outrageous amounts for a hotel room when all I am going to be doing there is watching a little TV and going to sleep, that $100 will pay for almost all of my hotel! I will be staying three nights, and I will be staying in this little rinky dink mom and pop place that I stayed the last time I was there, and it was only $36 a night. So that $100 covers almost all of that, so I will just have to put like $20 in to cover the rest of it! So, if it works out that way, I will be a VERY happy camper! Everybody cross your fingers!!! :-)

UGH! Have you ever tried to book a flight on the airline's website???

2009-01-29T17:31:00.002-06:00

I am doing it right now and it is STUPID! These prices are OUTRAGEOUS!

But I also went to some of the sites like hotwire.com and orbitz.com, and found some decent deals on there.

I know that none of you have any idea what I am talking about, because I haven't mentioned my trip because I don't want to jinx it, but it is almost guaranteed now, so it's time to fill you all in!

I am going to Florida to see Ryan the weekend of Valentines day! I am hoping to leave Friday the 13th in the morning, and come back Monday the 16th in the evening! I am SOOO excited about it! And the best part is, my boss is paying for the trip! That is why I have been so stressed out about closing these four loans this month, because that is my bonus! WHOO HOO! The final two loans are both closing tomorrow! I am SOOO excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL! THIS is how I feel when I go to work every morning!!! LOL!

2009-01-29T10:15:00.004-06:00

2009-01-28T12:12:00.002-06:00

Tuesday Tantrums

2009-01-27T13:43:00.003-06:00

Okay, I got this one from Kelly over at Green Olives & Pickle Juice. This is a GREAT idea! LOL! Especially with the Tuesday I am having!

This icon says it all....she is EVIL INCARNATE! All she has done all freaking day is yell at me! OVER AND OVER AND OVER! And I can't say a freaking word back to her without her her saying "Why the F*** are you doing that, Cassey?! Don't F***ING question me! Just F***ING do it!" "STOP being confrontational with me, Cassey, that is SO disrespectful!" UGH! I am SO tired of it! I have NEVER in my entire LIFE been told that I am confrontational! I am a DOOR MAT! I always have been! But to my boss, if she says "Are you stapling that together??!!?!" and I say "No, I am just stacking it so I can clip it and put it in the file.", THAT is confrontational to her! SHE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!

Now, my sister. *sigh* My sister. I love the fact that she still feels like she should call me if something is wrong. And I love the fact that she knows she CAN call me. But WHY does she call me, tell me what is wrong, ask me what to do, then IGNORE every word I say to her?!?!?!?! What the hell good does it do her to call me if she isn't going to listen to my advice?! She is honestly going to drive me insane one day, I can see it coming! I want to grab her and just SHAKE her! LOL! And she is "grown" now (19) so it's not considered child abuse anymore if I do it! LOLOL!

Then, as if my stress level wasn't high enough, we have my new extended family that I just found out about when I found my biological father. First of all, he was on hospice since September, and no one felt the urge to let me know that information. Second, he passed away, and no one told me for over 24 hours! THEN, when my step-sister finally DID call me, she left a PISSY voicemail saying "Cassey, I just wanted to let you know that MY daddy died last night." Notice the capital MY? Yeah, I noticed it, too. THEN, they decided that I didn't need to be informed of when the funeral was! It was last Friday....and I didn't find out until Thursday, and do you know HOW I found out? KELLY called my step-sister to see if they knew when and where it was going to be so she could send flowers!

Okay, I think I am done now. I have ranted and raved and gotten it all out of my system....hopefully that's all of it! LOL! Thanks for listening!

Not Me Monday! and some ranting worries...

2009-01-26T16:55:00.005-06:00

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Okay, everyone, I am new to this whole "Not Me Monday" stuff, but it sounds like a great idea, so here I am, giving it my best shot!

I did NOT spend most of Sunday in bed after church, instead of unpacking my house and doing laundry!

I did NOT lay my head on my desk at work on Saturday and take a short nap while Kelly (Green Olives & Pickle Juice) finished her work so we could leave!

I ABSOLUTELY did NOT have Kelly call my step-sister last week to find out about my dad's funeral arrangements because I knew if I talked to her it would turn into a SCREAMING match!

I did NOT sit in my bed last night reading a book and eating vanilla ice cream......then cheeto's and ketchup.....then popcorn......I would NEVER do that, even though I was having a REALLY bad night!

And I did NOT (nor would I EVER) think bad, evil, horrible thoughts about my boss when I realized last night that I would have to go BACK to work this morning......nope.....those thoughts were not coming out of MY head!!!

*sigh*

OOH....one more.....I did NOT just get a text message from my future sister-in-law asking me to babysit....and I did NOT just try to think of a lie to get out of it......but *sigh* I WILL be babysitting tonight......I just am NOT in the mood to do this.....but I can't say no....that sucks....

This is how I feel today. This is what this Monday has done to me.

Today is the first day of the last week of January. At work, for the Month of January I am supposed to close four loans. If I close four loans, I get a bonus. My bonus this month is in the form of $500 to use towards a trip to go see my Ryan. My Ryan, whom I haven't seen since the last time I talked here in my blog about going to see him. It's been at LEAST six months. And this month was looking pretty good for us as far as closing the loans goes.....unfortunately, everything has just jumped in the trashcan and set itself on fire. We have already closed two loans, and we have one that I KNOW will close this week. Unfortunately, that fourth one....the one that HAS to close for me to get my bonus.....just might not. EVERYTHING is falling apart on this one....and granted, it IS going to close. I WILL have all the stuff for it TO close....but there is a HUGE possibility that it is NOT going to close this week. Which means that it will close in February, not January, which means I will NOT get my four this month, which means I will NOT get that bonus! Because even if it closes February FIRST, my boss will use that against me as far as my bonus goes.

*sigh*

This has been a bad month.

Live Signature

2009-01-24T12:37:00.001-06:00

I got the link to do this from Kelly over at Green Olives & Pickle Juice! How cool is this signature???

GRRR....I suck at this!!!

2009-01-24T11:12:00.003-06:00

Okay, so I suck at blogging! :-) I just never remember to do it! I am working on getting better, but I just haven't quite made it yet, lol!

A lot has happened lately, the biggest thing being that my biological dad passed away a week ago. I am having a hard time processing it. As those of you who have been reading me for a while know, I didn't know him for most of my life. In fact, I just found him and started talking to him last February. Less than a year ago. I spent four days in Colorado with him, and only today have I realized that those are the only four days I will EVER spend with him. And we didn't talk about ANYTHING! Nothing of any importance, anyway. I just found out from his step daughter that he was a vietnam vet!

*sigh* Yeah....I just can't talk about this right now......

Golly! Update time!

2008-12-29T15:24:00.003-06:00

Okay, I haven't posted in about a month (maybe a little over), but I have been BUSY BUSY BUSY!!! I have changed jobs, changed houses, and made plans to change cars! LOL!

I finally got tired of all the crap I was getting at my old job and quit. I am now working with Kelly (over at Green Olives & Pickle Juice II), and sometimes that is good and sometimes it is not! LOL! Not because of Kelly, but because of our boss, Marci. Now, Marci is a WONDERFUL woman, with a heart of gold....she is just VERY impatient and VERY moody! So she yells a lot. Which is NOT something I am used to, and is very hard for me. She yells, I cry, she yells more, I cry more, then I go smoke and by the time I come back in most of the time she is over it, lol! Not always, but most of the time. But again, she has a heart of gold, so I am trying not to take all the yelling personally!

I moved because the house of my dreams came up for rent. I had to break my lease by a month, but it is so worth it. The only thing this house is missing is a white picket fence! It has a screened in front porch, hardwood floors, a big fenced in back yard for my dog, and a washer and dryer are included in the rent. AND it rents for $150 LESS a month than the last place I was living! It is an OLD house in the oldest part of town. Granted, it is not all new and shiny and freshly painted like most people would die to move into...but it is JUST what I wanted! I LOVE it! I am going to borrow Kelly's camera and take some picks of it tonight so I can post them tomorrow! I love it!

I will be buying Kelly's mom's car (because her husband just got her a new one for a Christmas present), so I will have a new car in January! WHOO HOO! I am SO excited about that, too! I will take picks of my car so you can all see why I am so excited! :-) I am a little sad, though, because I have had my car for almost five years now, and (wreck though it is) I do love it! It is a great little car, and it has been really good to me, even though I haven't really been very good to it. Kelly says I am crazy for being sad about it, but that car and I have been through lots together!

Anyway, I will talk about all of this more tomorrow....I have to get back to work! :-)

Update on car and job....

2008-11-25T09:29:00.011-06:00

Written on Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Okay, so as for the car situation....I had the man at Just Brakes put my car back together and I had it towed to a mechanic's shop that has been recommended to me several times. The man said he would look at it today and let me know what he thinks. Honestly, I wish he would call me and say "look, your car is on it's last pinkie toe, but I have a friend who is trying to sell his car, and he will let you make payments on it. I have checked it out, and it's a really reliable car." That would be nice. I would WAY rather put the money into BUYING a car than into fixing my old car. But... unfortunately, while I was writing this, he called. And that is NOT what he said. BUT, it is a little better than what the Just Brakes guy said. He said it IS going to cost a lot, but he is willing to work with me on paying it out. He said that if I could pay for the parts up front, then he would let me pay the rest out over the next couple of months. WHOO HOO! Of course, I would just rather have a new car, lol...but it doesn't look like that is going to happen right now. So I just have to grin and bear it, right? :-)

You know, I really wish that I was more mechanically inclined. It would be GREAT to be able to do all my own stuff to my car. Then I wouldn't have to pay ANYONE to work on it, I could just do it myself! That would be AWESOME! I just can't see myself being a "gear head", though! I mean, while I think it would be GREAT to HAVE THE ABILITY to do that....not to mention the DESIRE to do it.....I just don't see myself doing it! LOL! For as long as I can remember, I have been a girly girl. I don't like to get my hands or clothes dirty. I don't like to mess my fingernails up. I am SOOO uninterested in how cars run, as long as they DO run! I remember when I was a little girl, my step-dad used to make me hold the flashlight for him while he was fixing his truck or car (whichever he happened to have that day. He was big on trading one vehicle for another with his friends.) and I was so excited because I felt like I was getting at least a little positive attention from him as long as I held that flashlight still. So I would concentrate and do the best "hold the flashlight still" job I could do! I even learned how to make the appropriate responses when a guy is working on a car and is talking about this part and that part! Unfortunately, I still do that....and now, just like back then, my mind is in a WHOLE other place, no matter how many awesome comments I make in response. He also taught me how to check my fluids and how to change a tire. But, I ask you, WHAT girl wants to check her own fluids or changer her own tire?!?! Definitely not THIS one! So, instead, I am going to pay this mechanic to do it, and hopefully my car will last until I can get a new one. Everybody cross your fingers!!! :-)

As for the JOB update...I keep having to remind myself how important our work is...how many people depend on it...what a good thing we are doing for the cancer nursing profession...then something else happens that I get bitched at about...well, it could be worse, I guess....in one of those countries that still have slavery.....or those places with the sweat shops....

Yes, I am exaggerating, but not too much. Today my boss has really irritated me. I was SOOO close to just saying "look, if you want me to leave this job, then I will....but you need to tell me and quit nit picking and badgering me!!!"

sigh One of those days.....

2008-11-21T11:19:00.003-06:00

I just don't know what else I can do to make my boss happy. I work my ass off, occasionally take work and do it from home (without getting paid!), I took a cut in my take home pay so that I could become an employee instead of contract labor, I have ALSO had my overtime taken away, I do a little bit of EVERYTHING in the office and am getting underpaid for it, and am seriously underappreciated.

I think I might start looking for another job. Maybe there is an opening where Kelly works.

I don't know. It is currently just a thought running through my head. It seems like my boss is trying to find reasons to write me up and now one more write up and I am fired. If she is looking hard enough, she will find a reason, so maybe I should go ahead and look now. That is a really sad thought....I love the company I am working for, and their mission. I feel like this is where I need to be, but I feel like I am being pushed away every other day.

Okay, I can't talk about this right now, because I am just going to cry if I do.

OOOPS! Mess up on link!

2008-11-20T22:59:00.002-06:00

Thanks, Terri! You were right, I did mess up the link to my other journal! I would never have known if it wasn't for you!!! :-) Thanks so much!

Everyone who was trying to click and get to my other blog, I messed up the link in the other post about it. But I have fixed it in the other post, and here it is again!

http://the-journeytoawaistline-cassey.blogspot.com/

Hope to see you all there!

OMG!!!!! So cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-20T13:29:00.002-06:00

more animals

more animals

OH! By the way....

2008-11-19T16:13:00.003-06:00

I have a link to share with you! This is my other blog!

"The Journey to a Waistline"

I wrote in this a lot last year, but I have only made a couple of posts this year. I am REALLY making an effort now to lose weight, and I am actually doing research on the best way to do that. I have some links in there that you might want to check out if you are trying to lose weight, too! It is SUCH a big help to have support when you are trying to make a lifestyle change like this, and I have a big list of things that I am working on...my weight obviously being one of them!

So check it out! I can't wait to see you there!!!

Got the quotes....

2008-11-19T15:56:00.002-06:00

Okay, I got the quotes, and as I expected.....they make NO sense to me!!!! I am a GIRL! And when I say I am a girl, I don't mean that in the "yeah, I have the right anatomy" kind of way, LOL! I mean, I AM A G-I-R-L!!!! Okay, to give you an example..... Wayne, Kelly's husband, said that Kelly and I should get a book and buy the parts and fix my brakes ourselves. Kelly's first thought was "We don't have anything to wear to fix brakes!!" My first thought was "OMG! Do you know how much GREASE we would get under our nails!?" THAT is the kind of girl I am! So....DEFINITELY gonna have to let Wayne look at the quotes and tell me what he thinks, cause this is SOOOO out of my comfort zone! For a while, when my R would write me, he would put in

all these lessons about cars....but I never read them! WHY would I read them??? I tried, I promise I tried!!! But about two sentences in, my eyes would be reading, but my brain would NOT be processing! I would get this glazed over look on my face, and not tune back in until he went back to talking about ANYTHING other than car crap!

I really just wish that I knew someone who was selling a car that would take payments on it, or a car dealership that would let me get a car for little to no down payment and small to medium monthly payments. *sigh* Unfortunately, it's just not that easy.

No Quote Yet....

2008-11-19T09:00:00.002-06:00

Okay, so Kelly and I went all the way to the brake shop at AFTER seven o'clock last night, and what do you think happened??? The brake man was supposed to leave the quotes in the mailbox, since they closed at six, and we looked in the mailbox.....NO QUOTE! UGH! I called him this morning and he said that the quote was in the mailbox, but it had somehow got put UNDER his mail....which is NOT a possibility, because Kelly took all the mail OUT of his box and looked through it! So now he says that he is going to fax them to me....well, he said at 8:20 that he would fax them to me, but he still hasn't done it. Sooo.....Kelly said that if he doesn't fax them, then she will go out there this afternoon and pick them up.

Today is a depressed day....

UGH! It just gets worse and worse!

2008-11-18T18:24:00.002-06:00

Okay, so I talked to a guy yesterday about buying a car, because his advertisment said that they specialize in getting you little to no down payment and low monthly payments.

And that's exactly what it was! I called him back this afternoon and said that if I had a co-signer or $2800, he could get me into a car! LOL! I said, "Man, if I had $2800, I could just fix my brakes and be done with it! Or I could just go and BUY a used car from someone! $2800 is NOT within my reach, unfortunately."

UGH! Why can't just one time something fall into place??? It's not like I'm wanting someone to just GIVE me a car! Geez!!!!!!!!!!!!

So....I have no idea what I am going to do.....the evil brake man has my car torn apart in his shop and is implying that he HAS to do the minimum work on it ($400 to $500) or he can't let me drive the car away. He hasn't come out and SAID that, but that's what he is implying, and I am NOT happy about that implication....

Kelly and I are going to pick up the two quote sheets from him tonight, to show them to Wayne and my R to see if this guy is being honest (yep, Terri, we already thought of it! LOL! When I was talking to my R on the phone last night he was yelling about how full of crap that guy has to be, then we got on the phone with Wayne and he said the EXACT SAME THING!!! It was like they were the same person or something, lol!). So......I guess I will let ya'll know later how that goes....

*sigh*

Uh-oh....bad news from the brakes man...

2008-11-17T16:59:00.002-06:00

Very bad news.....over $700 to completely fix it, and between $400 and $500 to put a "bandaid" on it. That is HORRENDOUS!! I don't have that kind of money to spend on a car that is going to break down again in another month or so! I have no idea what I am going to do, but I am trying to figure it out. All I can say is....

THIS SUCKS!

Back to the office...

2008-11-17T09:28:00.003-06:00

Well, after my three day weekend, I am back in the office. My boss is not in today, and Kelly has an appointment, so until almost 9 o'clock it was just me. Now it is me and MB and M2. We call them that, because they are both named Michele, so that is our way of keeping them straight. It definitely get confusing when we are hollering "Michele!! Michele!!!" from our various offices....lol!

For those of you who are following this journal, I have decided to reopen my "Journey to a Waistline" journal as well. I have decided to continue on that journey, and will be updating that journal as regularly as possible. You are all welcome to follow it as well.

I feel like I have so much work to do. That is one of the reasons I hate taking a day off! It always makes me feel like I am slacking when I should be working, and like when I come back there is double the work to do! LOL! I hate that! I have enough work to do without feeling like it has doubled!!! :-)

I did enjoy my three day weekend, though. I spent most of the day Friday garage saling and thrift shopping. I had a pretty good time. I spent more money than I should have, but I am thrilled with the things I got. I even got my little sister some clothes and shipped them to her! I got a HUGE rug for my living room that takes up almost the entire room, for just $20!!! And I got a purple sheet set for my bed for just $10. That is an amazing deal, because I have a king size bed!!! I got some decorative fake flowers (because I have SUCH a black thumb, I can't keep IVY alive, much less some pretty flowers, lol!), some VHS tapes (because I LOVE my VCR!!!), and I can't even remember what else. Then I went and babysat R's nieces for a couple of hours. Then I went home, and I proceeded to spend the rest of the weekend at my house. Although, I wasn't alone for part of that time, because Kelly's daughter Kadie and her friend Courtney both came to my house on Saturday and spent the night Saturday night. We cleaned a little, then we ate pizza, watched movies, and we all wrote to my R. Then Kadie went to bed, and Courtney and I finished watching a movie before we went to bed. It was nice to be at my house and not be by myself. LOL!

I took my car this morning and left it at the brakes place to have them fixed. They have been grinding for a while now. Supposedly they will replace my pads, do something to my shoes, do something else and something else, all for $100. Then they will check it out and see if anything else is wrong with the brake system, and that $100 will then apply to the balance of whatever else they do. HOPEFULLY, once they do all those somethings to it, it will be fine. I will be SOOOO glad to have my car fully functional again! I also need to get my oil changed and all of my fluids checked. Anyway, Kelly followed me to the brake place, and then brought me to work. So she and I will be going to pick it up later. It better be okay, lol, AND it better not cost me an arm and a leg! I don't have either one to spare!!!

Let's see....what else is going on.....hmm.....nothing I can think of off the top of my head right now. My head is all in my work right now, lol! I will be back later!

Wow....

2008-11-13T17:11:00.002-06:00

WOW, my boss is wearing me out!!!!

Okay, so by the end of the day yesterday, my boss had sent me 24 emails. WOW! TWENTY FOUR! That is a lot of emails! Especially when you consider that her office is right across the hall from mine and she can see into my office and half the time she just yells what she wants to say to me from across the hall! She and I spend WAY too much time communicating, in my opinion! She only sent me eleven today. That's good, lol!

See this picture? This poor, working, overstressed, underappreciated woman with her hand on her head and the phone to her ear??? That will NOT be me tomorrow!!!! I am taking a DAY OFF!!!! I am SO excited about it! Here is my plan.....I don't have one! :-) I am going to sleep late, then eventually get up and clean my house, and just be BY MYSELF!!! I am SO excited! I might...just MIGHT....garage sale tomorrow morning! LOL...don't be mad, Kelly! You go garage sale-ing without me all the time! I will probably only go to a few houses right around my neck of the woods, because I won't want to go all the way into town just to garage sale by myself, lol! But none of that is the point! The point is............I do not have to work tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! How great is that?!?!?!

Okay, I think I am done for the time being. I may write a little more later....I don't know....

I got an award!!!

2008-11-12T13:33:00.003-06:00

But I don't know how to post it on my blog, or make all the links like Kelly did!
:-(

So now I have to wait for Kelly to help me with it, but she can't help me until everyone leaves work....ugh....

I love my boss, I really do. She is a wonderful woman.

...if I get ONE MORE EMAIL from her today, I'm gonna scream!!!!!

She is driving me crazy!!!!

I have gotten fifteen emails from her today!!! FIFTEEN!!!!

And today is not even over yet! What the hell is that about?????

I got seventeen from her yesterday!!!

I need a vacation.......

Buffy Personality Test.....

2008-11-11T12:57:00.001-06:00

This one was a shocker! I didn't expect to be her! I used to love this show!!!

Your result for The 4-Variable Buffy Personality Test...

Dawn Summers

55% amorality, 82% passion, 82% spirituality, 82% selflessness

Dawn is a person driven by her love for her friends and her desire to make a difference. Perhaps you are, too. You're willing to do whatever is necessary to do what is right for those you care about, and sometimes this can get you in a little bit of trouble.

Most of all, however, you have a heart of gold.

Congratulations!

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following:

Nerds, Geeks & Dorks

Professional Wrestling

Love & Sexuality

America/Politics

Thanks Again! -- THE 4-VARIABLE BUFFY PERSONALITY TEST

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Working, working, working....

2008-11-11T08:53:00.002-06:00

Okay, I didn't post last night, but I DID get a pretty layout! LOL! I love it! It is SO pretty!

Not quite what I had in mind to begin with, but pretty anyway. Now I have to figure out the rest of this blogger thing, lol! I can change my layout if I want, but I haven't figured anything else out, except how to make a regular post.

So, I'm at work....I love my job, I really do....but I am the kind of person who has to feel valued at my job, and I am starting to lose that feeling here. That sucks, because that makes going to work miserable.

Anyway, I will post more later, I just wanted to post and let everyone know that Kelly helped me figure out the layouts, lol! :-)

Oh....here are my results to the quiz Kelly posted!

I am a Doris!

Your result for Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz...

You Are a Doris!

You are a Doris -- "I must help others."

Dorises are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.

How to Get Along with Me

* Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.

* Share fun times with me.

* Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.

* Let me know that I am important and special to you.

* Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

In Intimate Relationships

* Reassure me that I am interesting to you.

* Reassure me often that you love me.

* Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a Doris

* being able to relate easily to people and to make friends

* knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better

* being generous, caring, and warm

* being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings

* being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a Doris

* not being able to say no

* having low self-esteem

* feeling drained from overdoing for others

* not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish

* criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should

* being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them

* working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

Dorises as Children Often

* are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism

* try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding

* are outwardly compliant

* are popular or try to be popular with other children

* act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention

* are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Dorises), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Dorises)

Dorises as Parents

* are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)

* are often playful with their children

* wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"

* can become fiercely protective

Take Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz at HelloQuizzy

MY FIRST POST AS A BLOGGER, NOT A JOURNALER!

2008-11-10T16:51:00.003-06:00

Okay, folks, I am trying to figure out this blogging thing....I had just finally figured out how to really work AOL journals, now I am having to start all over again and figure out blogspot. *sigh*

Well, as you all know, I am not very good at keeping up with journaling...but I am going to try very hard to get better at it. So...cross your fingers, lol!

I was trying to put a cool layout on my blog, and I figured it would be simple....like myspace....

um......NO! LOL! So I have to wait until I get to Kelly's house so that I can get her help. Which sucks, cause I had a REALLY pretty layout I wanted to use, with candles....but now I can't, cause it doesn't work right. :-(

So.....I have two minutes until I can leave work, so I am going to wrap up this post, and hopefully when I post tonight, I will have a pretty layout! :-)

Stay tuned........

Recipe for Cow Pot

2008-09-24T13:53:00.000-05:00

Well, since Kelly mentioned that I wanted to make Cow Pot on her journal, lots of people have asked what Cow Pot is....so I figured I would tell everyone! It's really simple, and really yummy....

Basically, it is just a fried rice dish, but it is called Cow Pot in Thailand, where my friend's mom learned how to make it.

Ingredients:

Rice - One cup per serving (I normally make about six servings)

Chicken - I like to use either the canned chicken breast or boneless skin-less breasts, because I only eat white meat chicken, and I don't like the skin or fat on it.

Green Onions - Chopped

Eggs - Two - raw and mixed together

Soy Sauce

Directions:

First you make rice....generally one cup per serving that you want to make.

Now, if you are going by the book, you should make your rice the day BEFORE you want to make the Cow Pot, and refrigerate it until the next day when you are ready to make it. Day old rice makes better Cow Pot than fresh rice....but in my opinion, it is good either way.

Now, you can can either boil, grill, or bake your chicken, just make sure that it is thoroughly cooked. Then you cut it up into one or two inch squares. You can also shred the chicken, if you prefer smaller pieces.

Make sure that your green onions are ready to go.

Combine your rice, chicken, and onion in a very large skillet or wok that has been sprayed with a non-flavored non-stick spray. Add four tablespoons of soy sauce to start. Put on medium high heat and continuously stir until the it is completely mixed, and the mixture is VERY HOT. At this time, add the egg. Just pour it in and stir. You have to continue to stir so that the egg doesn't just cook all in one place. Continue to add soy sauce until you are happy with the flavor. Salt, pepper, and serve!

It is SOOOO yummy!!!!!! I love it! I might have to make it at Kelly's house tonight!

I have also added sweet peas, carrots and corn to mine....that was pretty good, too.

Well, there it is! Enjoy!!!!

Exactly how I feel about immigration:

2008-09-23T13:33:00.000-05:00

Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on Immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907.

'In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American... There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag.... We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language....
And we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people.'

Theodore Roosevelt 1907

Wow.....things have been rough here.....

2008-08-28T16:59:00.000-05:00

Well, i am here at work, fixing to leave, so I don't have much time to make this post, but I just wanted to let everyone know, my step-dad passed away last week. I am not sure most of the time how I feel about it, the last two weeks have been a rough ride.

I plan on making a much longer post about this, and I also plan to start posting more often. I just can't make a long post about it today, because I have to leave work at five.

Just so everyone knows, between finding my real dad and now my step-dad passing away and everyone getting together for that, I have brothers and sisters coming out of the woodwork, left and right, everywhere! LOL! It's crazy.

Love and hugs to everyone, and thanks to those who have stuck with me even through me not posting much! I appreciate it! It will get better soon, I promise!

Cassey

Taking a step....

2008-08-07T17:41:00.000-05:00

Well, I am taking a step toward my dream! I posted on craigslist the following message:

Are you looking for a wedding planner or a party planner to give you a hand on for a special occasion? Are you on a budget, and don't think you can afford help? My name is Cassey, and I would like to help you! I have several years of event planning experience, but none that I could put on my resume as a "job". Because of that, I am willing to charge a fraction of the cost a normal planner would charge!

I have planned kids parties, weddings, business events, etc. I am now wanting to open my own event planning business, and I would like to start small, to build my portfolio!

If you have an event coming up, please, let me know! I would love to talk to you!

Cassey
EventsByCassey@yahoo.com

I don't know if anything will come of it....but it never hurts to try, right?!

Irked at work!

2008-08-05T15:21:00.000-05:00

Okay, so I am irritated with my job. I am now working (I don't think I have filled ya'll in on this!) at a company called Creative Cancer Concepts, Inc.

That is our logo. We do continuing education classes for oncology nurses, and we do it free of charge. This is a WONDERFUL thing! In fact, if any of you reading my journal are oncology nurses, please let me know, and I will let you know of any upcoming events we have!

We also have a sister company (which I also work for) called beyond: Oncology Education and Inspiration. It is a magazine company.

That is the logo for beyond. Our magazine is specifically geared toward oncology nurses, AND we publish it and send it out, free of charge, to oncology nurses. Our subscriptions are completely free.

SO, I don't have a problem with my company or my job, because we are doing SUCH wonderful work...I am very proud to work here.

BUT! LOL! I am really tired of some aspects of it. Now, it is nothing big...somebody has to do the little, menial shit....but WHY does it have to be me??? What company has the ACCOUNTANT take out the trash, or the EXECUTIVE ADMIN watering the grass, or the ACCOUNTS PAYABLE/RECEIVABLE person making coffee!!!! I am all of those things, and I am DOING all of those things, and more! AND....lets just add to it....I am supposed to be taking on more job duties in a couple of weeks.....

Oh well....it could be worse, I guess.....LOL! I could be doing all of this for a company I can't stand, and that I DON'T believe in! LOL!

Later gators!

Trying again....

2008-08-04T16:49:00.000-05:00

Okay, I tried the other day to make a post, but it wouldn't let me put pictures on it, so I got aggravated and quit trying! LOL! So I am trying again!

Well, I have been talking to my biological father's oldest son for a week now, and...I have to ask....is it WRONG to think your brother is HOT?! LOL!

See!!! HOT HOT HOT! LOL! BUT, I have been talking to him for a week now, and he strikes me as a little immature. Okay, a LOT immature! But, I have to say, even though he is immature, he is the person I have met that shares my blood that I have bonded with the most. He just gets on my nerves sometimes, lol, but I guess brother's are supposed to do that! LOL! Of course, there is also the fact that he calls me "lil sis" a lot...which just gives me a warm, mushy feeling, lol! I have never been anyone's little sister before! I mean, my step-dad had older kids, but we haven't even talked in YEARS!

Now, the trip to meet my biological dad and his family.....it was good....it was fun....but I was SO ready to come home! LOL! You know how when you are somewhere with new people and ou are trying to be on your BEST behavior....or when you just meet someone and you KNOW that something that you normally say or do will be something they DON'T approve of, so you are watching everything you say and do? That is how I felt while I was there! That gets REALLY tiresome after a while.....that's why I was ready to come home. It's not that I didn't like them, or that I didn't have a good time....they are great people.....I was just ready to be me again, lol! The me I have always been, not the me that I was with them.

Anyway, now I am back, and I am getting back into work...which is a WHOLE nother post, which I will do tomorrow, cause it is almost five and I wanna get out of here! LOL!

work, I mean, lol!

BYE!

Shawn Mayer....

2008-07-24T10:32:00.000-05:00

This is Shawn Mayer! I LOVE HER! She is in the finalists on Nashville Star, and she is GREAT! This is the song she wrote and performed herself this week. It is great, and I hope she gets a recording contract just so she can put out a cd with this song on it!

AMAZING NEWS! Some good, some bad...

2008-07-22T15:43:00.000-05:00

Okay, so it's still few and far between, but I am getting better! I have quite a bit to update everyone on...

Well, I have been talking to my biological father since I found him in February of this year. We have had lots of talks on the phone, and we are bonding, I guess. Things are going well. But then, I got some really bad news from him. He was diagnosed with lung cancer a few years ago, but he beat it, and in February when I started talking to him, he was cancer free. Well, his cancer came back.

This is the lung cancer awareness ribbon. Seems like they have a ribbon for everything these days. The lung cancer awareness ribbon is clear/pearl colored. The first time he was diagnosed with lung cancer, they were VERY aggressive in treating it. Because of that, he is unable to have anymore radiation. And he has chosen to not have anymore chemo either. So he is going to see what experimental stuff is out there, and he is going to pray.

This is the cervical cancer ribbon. It is teal and white. That is what my mom died from in December of 2003. Now I have found my dad....and might lose him too.

There is an upside to all of this, though....well....not to my dad having cancer, there is NO upside to that. But there is an upside to everything else that has happened to lead up to this point.

My boss, amazing woman that she is, has decided to use some of her frequent flyer miles to send me to Colorado to meet my dad! I am SO excited about it! I can't wait! Of course, I am nervous, too....lol. I made Kelly drive me ALL OVER yesterday, looking for these shoes....shoes I want to wear the first that I go down there, because they are SO cute! I love them!

Aren't they PRECIOUS!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I just love them! I am going to wear them with a pair of blue jean capris and a dark brown shirt.

Anyway, I am leaving this Friday morning, bright and early...we have to leave for the airport at around five. lol, Kelly is NOT excited about it!

And then I am coming back on Monday night. My boss gave me Friday and Monday off.

Okay, have to go for now.....

Wow....interesting trip! LOL!

2008-06-23T17:05:00.000-05:00

Well, I went to see Ryan the weekend of June 13th, and he is in Florida now, so I drove out there. I didn't think I was EVER going to get there!!!! LOL!

I left the Dallas area around 10:30 a.m. That was the first problem, lol! I intended to leave around 8 a.m. Unfortunately, it took WAY longer to rent the car than I thought it was going to! So I got a late start!

This is the car I rented....not the actual one, but one exactly like it. It is a Chevy Cobalt, and if you like compact cars, and you have to go on a LOONG trip, this is DEFINITELY the car to get! You hardly feel any of the bumps along the way, it is such a smooth ride! Plus it is roomier inside than a lot of compact cars. The ROOMIEST car on the inside, for me, though, is the Kia Optima. I got one of those when I drove all the way to Phoenix, Az, and it was like driving a full size car! It was small on the outside, which I love, but VERY spacious on the inside! Anyway.....

First, I wound up stopping in Shreveport, Louisiana, for almost TWO HOURS looking for this:

I have a house charger for my cell phone, but not a car charger. And there is NO WAY I could have gone as far as I did without a cell phone! I only had one bar of battery when I stopped in Shreveport. *sigh* These things are a LOT harder to find than you would think! I went to truck stops, I went to Radio Shack, I went to Wal-Mart....FINALLY I went to the Dollar Store, and I found THIS: AND my dumb ass bought it!!!!!!!!!! Like that would work!!!! DUMB! That is an adaptor to make the car charger work in the house! I needed the other way around! So, I stopped at Wal-Mart's in Louisiana and Mississippi and FINALLY found THIS: Although mine is actually silver and a little bigger than that. EVERY place I stopped was out of the actual car chargers, so I had to get this, which was less than ten dollars more than the car charger, so I'm happy about it.

THEN, I was ALMOST out of Alabama....I was right outside of Mobile, and I got pulled over!!!! I was with Mr. Policeman for another almost two hours!!!! He had a few issues letting me go! He eventually told me, after searching my car and all kinds of things, that there is someone out there using a name ALMOST the same as mine, whose birthday is 12/10 (mine is 10/12), who has the same numbers in her social security number that I have in mine, just in a different order, who has had a license in the same two states that I have had one, who is wanted on a federal warrant for drugs!!!!!!!!!!!!! So he was worried that I was her!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, the work day is over, so I have to put this on pause until I get back online.....I will finish tomorrow, I promise!

Thanks everyone who still reads my few and far between blogs and leaves comments!

Okay....longer update...I can't believe I have been gone so long!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-16T15:54:00.000-05:00

Okay, so here goes.... I went to see R in November/December and he proposed....ya'll all knew that, lol! Well, right after Christmas my brother got in some more trouble, and I decided that the best thing to do all around would be to move him and me and my little sister out of that horrible town and get back up to the Dallas area....where I would be happy, and I could do SO MUCH MORE for them! PLUS they would be away from all of the horrible influences they have down there. So....after I got my income tax check (the middle/end of February) I paid the deposit and rent on a house in the Dallas area. A town outside of Dallas. My brother and I moved up here, and my sister wanted me to come back and get her in a week. Well, my brother spent two weeks up here and decided he wanted to move back in with his piece of s*** dad. And my sister decided she didn't want to move up here at all. So they are both living with their dad. Now, this is a horrible situation, and they are SO MUCH WORSE off there than they EVER were with me (for a lot of reasons, but I don't want to go into those now....)...but they made the choice, and I can't keep them from him. My brother is 15 now and my sister is 18. I can't force them to do what I want them to do. So...here I am....in a town 3 hours away from them, living in a 3 bedroom house by myself. I love my house, though! I have to say that! I am paying WAY too much for it, but I love it! It's exactly the kind of place I want my R to come home to, and I am having a BLAST going garage saleing and thrift storing to get all of the little things I need that will make it our home and not just a house! I have never really had the time or the money to do that with the kids such a big priority in my life....now I do....it's weird...but I am loving the decorating part! I miss my bro and sis....so much....and I worry so much about them....but i've done what I can do, and they know how to get in touch with me if they ever want to move back in with me. They know I love them, and I talk to my little sister a couple of times a week.

So....I came up here and was looking for a job....and I went to a temporary agency, and they said they needed a copy of my social security card. I couldn't find mine, so I went to the SS office to get another one sent to me! AND GUESS WHAT?! My real dad's name was on my social security information! Okay....some basics real quick....I was born in October of 79, my mother married my step father in January of 80. So my whole life (until I turned 18 and my mother told me PART of the truth) I thought my step dad WAS my real dad....which really hurt me a lot because of the horrible way he treated me. BUT...she finally told me he wasn't when I was 18, but she wouldn't tell me who WAS....she said she didn't want to talk about it right then. Well....then she passed away in 2003, and we never talked about it again. I thought the secret was forever lost with her!!!!!!!!!!! But there it was, right there on my social security forms!!!!!!!!!!! And it was kind of a unique name....so my friend Kelly and I went to her house and we got online! AND WE FOUND HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How amazing is that?! We found his name and his phone number (he lives in Colorado) and I called him! It was the CRAZIEST phone call I have ever made! I mean, really....how do you call a man who lives in another state that you have never met and say "hey....dude.....you've missed 28 birthdays now...do you think you could come to the 29th?" Or "Hey....guess what? It's a girl!" LOL! Well, I did it with a little more tact than all of that! He was/is so sweet to me....he was in complete shock and at first didn't remember my mother...well, that's because no one ever called her by her first name when she was younger...they all called her by a nickname....so when I mentioned that nickname to him and that she had a belt with it on there.....he got SOOOOO quiet....so I kept going on and describing her....and he stopped me...he said "I remember her....oh God....Dusty.....she passed away?????" And then he started crying! And he never knew that I existed....they got in a fight and she left him and never told him!!!! Okay....I have SO MUCH MORE to say on this subject...but I am at work, and I don't want to start crying, which I am already having to hold back....so I am going to move on to something else...OH...but guess what?!?!!? I was conceived in Phoenix!!!!!!!!!!!! How weird is that?!!!???!! No WONDER I love it so much!!!! LOLOLOL!

another short update!

2008-03-19T20:32:00.000-05:00

Hey there! I am on for another short update! I have to get off here pretty quick...it is getting late and am taking Kelly's daughter Kadie and her friend Courtney to my house tonight. We are having a "slumber party", LOL! We are doing hair, taking pics, and playing games....but it's already 8:30, so we have to get a move on!

We went the other day and hunted wedding and bridesmaid dresses....I liked two of them, and LOVED the third....but I STILL love mine (the one posted in one of my earlier journal entries) WAY better! Even though Kelly hates it! But that's okay...it's MY wedding, not hers! LOL! Here are the dresses I tried on:

I LOVED this one! Made me look SO much skinnier!!! LOL!

Okay....maybe this is a sign....lol! AOL is being a bitch and won't let me add anymore pictures!!!!!!!! I have two more dress pics, AND pics of me and Kelly and Kadie and Courtney dying our hair!!!!!!!!!!! UGH! It won't let me put ANY of them on here!!!!

I guess I will try again tomorrow.....

a poem (hehehehe)

2008-03-06T01:48:00.000-06:00

Cassey was here

But now she is gone

She had to go home

I am already home

She neglects her journal

So I keep it up

She comes here for dinner

And cable TV

And I do her laundry

What an odd couple of girls are we

She has to go to work

I dont

I get to sleep in

She dont!

2008-03-04T20:59:00.000-06:00

The entry fairy is here again...

What can I tell you about Cassey?

She snores REALLY LOUDLY!

Like freight train coming... :)

She has a hair growing on her big toe...

OH OH OH

and the best one?

She has grey hairs and she AINT EVEN 30 yet!

UGH! Can't trust anybody! LOL!

2008-03-04T20:20:00.000-06:00

Geez, Kelly! UGH! LOL!

Okay everyone....update ahead:

So I called my dad. I got tired of bugging kelly to do it because she kept putting me off, lol, so I just called. I SHOCKED him, lol.....imagine, a daughter you never knew you had coming out of the woodwork! That's the good thing about being a woman, I guess....if we have a kid, we know it! LOL! Anyway.......I have a LOT to say about talking to him, but I don't have time to do it right now.....lol. Let's just say that it went great! We have talked FIFTY or so times since then.....it's going well. I have to run, though, cause I have to go to the pharmacy and my future sister in law's house. I will be back tomorrow, though, to leave a longer entry.

HUGS!!!!!!

Cassey

ooopssss

2008-03-03T12:46:00.000-06:00

oooppsss Cassey was here but she left...

Before she remembered to make an entry...

So I will make one for her...

But I wont actually tell you anything....

She will have to do that :)

Finally making an entry....

2008-02-25T21:21:00.000-06:00

Okay everyone....sorry it's been so long since I made an entry.....I don't have internet at my new house yet! lol! We moved last weekend. My brother came with me, but my sister has decided to stay in Carthage for a while......don't know how long that's going to last when she figures out she can't pay the bills without a job! lol!

Well, the move has been great, in my opinion. I love the house, and I love being back in this area.....of course, I am still stressing over a job, cause I don't have one yet, but Kelly and I have been looking, and I have some leads...so I am hopeful....

Well, I do have some news....news that I am very stressed out about and have no idea what to do about it. I went to get a copy of my social security card today from the social security administration, and when they gave me the paperwork to sign, I was reading it and it had a man's name listed as my father. Now, for those of you who don't know, I was born in October of '79, and my mother married my step-father in January of '80. No one's name was listed on my birth certificate under father, and I thought that my step-father was my real father until I was 18. Christmas the year I turned 18, I asked my mother if he was my real father and she told me no. I asked who WAS, and she told me she would tell me another time. She passed away without ever telling me. I have had several conversations with people in my family, and they gave me a name and several different jobs that he may or may not have had.....but that's all anyone knew. Well, that and the fact that he took off when my mother told him she was pregnant. So, I went to the SSA and this man's name was on my paperwork as my father. Same name my aunts told me. SO Kelly and I came home and did some internet research, and there is only one man in the entire united states who has this name....first, last, and middle initial. We have his name, his age, his wife's name, his son's name, his son's wife's name, his address, and his phone number. Part of me wants to call him...but I can't think of what I should say....all I have right now is anger for him.....anger that he could leave me to be raised by that man my mother married. Angerthat after 28 years he has never wondered enough about me to try to find me. Anger that he had a child four years older than me.....a child who has his name. I know if I call him that anger will show. Kelly, always the voice of reason for me, has said that I don't know the circumstances, and until I do, I don't have the right to be angry. Maybe my mother didn't tell him she was pregnant. Who knows. But that doesn't take my anger away. I have had ten years to build up this anger, and I don't see it going anywhere until I know the truth. We also found out via an article in their newspaper that he has lung cancer. I don't know how to deal with that knowledge.... My mother died from cervical cancer. What if I try to make the anger go away before I contact him....and he dies in the meantime? Then I will never have a chance to know the truth. And that's all I want....I want to FINALLY know the truth. The whole truth. I want to know who I am....and he holds the key to that. I don't want anything from him.....only the truth. I want to know if he knew about me....if he did, I want to know why he left....if he didn't, I want to know what he would have done if he had. I want to know if he has thought about me at all over the years.

I love this icon....fits my mood right now....

Anyway....I am going to sign off of here....I'll make another post when I decide something....AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! LOL!

Some catching up stuff...

2008-02-10T20:45:00.000-06:00

Hey there everyone! I have some catching up to do, so this may be a long entry...just so you know ahead of time!

Alrighty, this is a picture of the one and only time it snowed this winter in my neck of the woods! This picture is outside of my work (well, my OLD work), and it snowed these HUGE snowflakes for about ten minutes....then it was over, and none of it even stuck on the ground!

This is the A**H*** that was my boss, Warren! I can't freaking stand him! He's a COMPLETE micromanager and a JERK on top of it! But, I took a pic of him anyway...Don't ask me why. I guess cause I am a decent person and I was taking some other pics around the office and I didn't want him to feel left out.

And this is Donna. I have lots to say about Donna...but none of it is nice, so I am going to try to refrain. She and I made up the Safety Department of my company, and she liked to pawn her work off on me. She really, I think, deep down is a nice person....but I also think that the niceness may be a cover....

Ugh...just looking at this pic, yeah, I have a lot to say about Donna....and Warren too, for that matter.....but I'm just going to save my breath.

THIS....This is a picture that my fiance, Ryan, airbrushed of me! I think it is great! Not one of his best, because he was really just practicing on this one, but it is great, in my opinion! I have some more pics of his stuff, but a lot of it has some adult content, so I don't wanna put it on here until I let ya'll know, so it will probably be in a post by itself, with AC in the title, in case ya'll don't wanna see it! But here is the picture of me:

This is the picture he based the above painting on...he just changed the shirt color. oh...AND gave me better hair, lol!

OH MY LORD! Here is an actual picture of my sister's FACE!!! LOL! I can't believe she let me take it!!!!!!!!! OH! There's TWO of them!

This one is of the two of us together....it was part of her senior pictures....

I absolutely HATE this pic of me....but I love it of her. ALL of her senior pictures came out SO great....I'm going to have to put some of them on here one day. She is SO photogenic!

And here are some pictures of our new house....the one we are going to move into this coming weekend! I am SO excited! I can't wait!

This is the master bathroom....MINE!!! ALL MINE!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL!

These are the TWO walk in closets in the master bedroom! MINE...ALL MINE....until Ryan comes home! lol! Then I will let him have one....maybe! LOL!

This is a picture of part of the kitchen, some storage space, a beautiful mirror...and the back end of Kelly (happysunshien), lol!

My fireplace, mantle, and mirror in my living room!!!!!!!!!! WHOO HOO!!!! I have a fireplace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And this, my friends....is my new wet bar!!!!!!!!!! WHOO HOO!!! I have a wet bar!!!!!! Oh...and my brother and Kelly's boobies in the background! lol!

This is another pic of my living room and fireplace, and my brother, lol!

This is the pond that is also on the property. This is one of the most important things to my sister. She wanted us to move somewhere where there was a lot of land and space...I am SO glad this place was available! I love it, and so do the kids!

And this is one of the trees right beside my house. They all are shaped like this! They are so interesting and pretty....I can't wait to see what they look like once summer comes!

Okay....I think that's about it for now! I think I have posted all the pictures I should for now! LOL! I went a little picture crazy!

okay...so i'm a follower....

2008-02-09T21:49:00.000-06:00

lol...i'm a follower...i admit it! everyone was posting songs and videos on their journal entries, and so I just HAD to figure out how to do it, too....so here is MY favorite Gretchen Wilson song..."I don't feel like loving you today".

wow...it's been a LONG week!

2008-02-08T02:42:00.000-06:00

Well, I have been up, and I have been down, and I have been up, and I have been down! I'm about to get motion sick from it all!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, I haven't really been on here much, so I don't know how many of you know this, but I am taking the kids and I am moving back to the Dallas area. I am SO excited about it!!! I can't wait!!! I hate this stupid, black hole of a town, and I am SO glad to be FINALLY getting out of it again!

In the last week, I have had a house, lost a house, got that house back, lost that house again, got another house, applied for about 5000 jobs, had a job, lost my current job because they found out before I gave them notice that I am looking for another job, found the job of my dreams, and now have NO idea if I am going to get it! I have gotten a guilt trip from my fiance, gotten fed up with my sister TONS, including right now, and generally been through the ringer! I am trying to remember that everything happens for a reason....Even though there are things I liked about the first house that we don't have at this house, I think this house is better for us in the long run...out in the country, bigger.....lots of benefits. I really hope this job comes through....

As all of you know, I am an administrative assistant. I have been an administrative assistant since I got my associates degree in 1999. I have worked for more companies than I can even remember (since I have worked for a lot of temp agencies), and in more fields than I can count. And, as you also know, I HATE my current job. Well, my LAST job, now...because they fired me on Wednesday. Said I was tardy too many times. Well, I know that is not the reason, because in the time period my boss was talking about, I was only tardy one time, and that is when it was raining so hard it took me an HOUR to drive the 30 miles to work! I was responding to an email about a job in the Dallas area, and my boss came in from lunch and saw it. He pretended like he didn't...but then two hours later, the HR lady from the downtown office showed up, and thirty minutes later, they called me in the office and fired me.

(lol...this looks so much like my old boss! The combover and everything!)

So, anyway, they gave me time to clean things off my computer and get my stuff together, and here I am....unemployed. Well, ya know....I can't be too upset about it. I hated it....I have tried to force myself into an upset depression about it...but it's just not working! lol! I need the time to get everything ready for us to move, so I think this happened for a reason. But....back to the point....I have been doing this kind of work so long, and I am so tired of it. I got the degree I got because I knew it would keep me employed. I did what I had to do. I worked the jobs I have worked because they paid the bills and put food on the table. Again, I did what I had to do. And when we get to Dallas, if I have to, I will get another job just like all those others...because I will always do what I have to do to pay the bills and keep food on the table....BUT...I am so tired of it! I'm sure I have ranted about this before....but I am tired of doing what I have to do! I want to do something I enjoy and something I WANT to do! Now, don't get me wrong...I am a GREAT admin assistant....not to brag or anything, but that is the one area in my life that I feel complete confidence in! But I DON'T like it...at all. I do it, and I do it well, but I don't do it because I want to. SO......I looked for places that do the kind of work I WANT to do in the Dallas area, and I emailed a bunch of them and asked if they had any open positions. One responded and said that they were always looking for new talent, and she wanted me to send in my resume! So I did...and now I am waiting to hear back from her. PLEASE, everyone, put this on your prayer list for me! I want this job so bad.....it makes my heart swell up inside to think I may actually have a shot at getting into this industry! Even if I have to start from the bottom, even if I have to do admin work until I can work my way up.....at least it will be a start! Can anyone guess what it is???? Here's a hint:

Yep! You guessed it! Iwant to be a wedding and event planner!!! I really think i have a knack for it, and I think I would love it and be really good at it! So, please, everyone....think happy thoughts, pray for me, whatever you do....please do it! I feel like this is a HUGE turning point in my life.....

Well, folks, it is almost three in the morning, so I am going to go. Thanks for listening to my rambling, lol! I will be back to post pics of the new house tomorrow!!!!

I am just tired, folks.....

2008-02-02T02:47:00.000-06:00

WARNING!!! VERY ANGRY AND EMOTIONAL POST AHEAD!!!!

I don't know how else to put it. I am just tired.

I'm tired of never being good enough.

I'm tired of doing everything I can and just getting grief for the things I don't do.

I gave up so many things I wanted in my life. I came back to this stupid town that I have hated my whole life. I have worked jobs I hated, jobs that made me miserable. I have worked at convenience stores for $5.25 to $6.25 an hour (with a DEGREE!!!), I have been the person who delivers newspapers to stores for $50 a week, I have worked in places where I am unappreciated, underpaid, overworked. I have argued with my friends, fought with my fiance, lost myself!

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I currently work at a job where I am completely unhappy. I leave the house around 7 a.m. and most nights don't get home till almost 7 p.m., sometimes later. I sometimes work weekends. I have more responsibilities and more job duties than any one person can handle. I stress about my job even when I am not there. I bring home work to do at night and on weekends, work that I do not get paid to do. I deal with it every time I stay late at work or bring work home that I have stayed up half the night to do, then get a lecture and threats when I clock in 3 minutes late the next morning. I bite my tongue every time my boss gives me something "urgent" to do that he could do on his own when I have ten other things on my desk that he has already told me are "urgent". I deal with the disrespect that seems to come more and more every day in my office. There are more things than I can even list that I deal with, that I just bite my tongue and take because this job is what is supporting us all right now.

Yet, all I hear is "you don't do ANYTHING!"! My sister went to feed (her) cat, and she asked me where the cat food was. I told her "I don't know, you are the last one who fed him." So....once again....I don't ever do anything. Oh...she also fed the two (hers and our brother's) dogs tonight. She doesn't have a job. I make sure she has what she needs AND what she wants, even when I have to go into debt to do it. She sits at home ALL DAY EVERY DAY and every once in a while she will clean the bedroom, or the living room, or wash a load of clothes. I wash the dishes, I cook. I go to the grocery store. The majority of times I take the clothes to the laundry place to dry them. AND I work. Between the work and the drive to and from work, I am gone from this house at least fifty hours a week. AT LEAST! I am home and AWAKE at the most five hours a day (and that's when i stay up until midnight) five days a week. So why...oh please tell me why.....should I have to spend that five hours plus my weekend cleaning, and cooking, and washing, and doing everything when she does NOTHING!? Why should I have to take care of HER pets? And she tells me "all you do at work is sit at a computer all day". She has NO FREAKING IDEA what I do all day, or what I put up with simply so I can take care of her and our brother! Does she have any idea how bad it hurts me when she says things like that? Does she have any idea that when she says I'm lazy and I don't do anything, it takes me back to the days of living in the house with her father (my step-father) where I was told EVERY DAY that I was worthless, and lazy, and fat, and stupid!? Where no matter what I did or how much I did or how I did it, it was NEVER good enough?! Does she have any idea?

Probably not. She was only 7 when I finally got the hell out of there, and he VERY RARELY treated her that way, if ever.

One of her favorite things to say to me used to be that I just didn't understand her life, because I had it so EASY. Yeah...it was SO EASY to explain away that black eye in high school. And the time he knocked out my tooth....piece of cake. It was SO EASY to be woke up every day by him hitting me with the first thing he grabbed. It has been so easy to live my life with his voice inside my head every day telling me how worthless I am. Oh, and it didn't bother me at all the day he came in my room and told me that he didn't understand how I could ever think anyone could love me. And all of that was BEFORE I found out he was NOT my real father.

Easy. Taking care of my brother and sister from the time they were born until the day I moved out because my mother became an alcoholic after my sister was born. Protecting them from his temper and his violence. Putting myself in the way so that he would hit me instead of my mother. Facing him down the day he threw her down the stairs. Hiding in my room from the time he came home from work until he passed out drunk at night....only coming out to eat supper AFTER he passed out, because anytime he saw me eating he raged on and on about how all I ever did was eat, and I was a fat blob. Hiding my books because if he saw me reading I was a worthless piece of shit. Mowing an acre of yard with a push mower in 90 to 100 degree weather, including in the woods, AFTER picking up all of his beer cans from the yard, because that was the only time I was doing something worthwhile....but even then I wasn't doing it right. Going to the community college in my hometown, instead of getting the hell out of dodge, because I had to stay home and take care of my mother after she was diagnosed with liver disease. Finally leaving, only to send most of my paycheck to my mother because he wouldn't pay the bills or buy the kids birthday presents or Christmas presents. Finally leaving, only to get called home again because she was diagnosed with cancer. Spending twenty four hours a day, seven days a week, in the hospital with her, because everyone else had other things to do. Walking in and having her tell me to get out of her room because she didn't know who I was. Holding her hand and telling her that if she had to go, I would understand....listening to Melinda and Michael's names being the last words she ever spoke, and promising her I would always take care of them. Then holding her hand as she took her last breath. Sitting in the hospital room with her, alone, singing amazing grace and waiting for the funeral home to come. Telling Melinda (14) and Michael (11) that their mother was dead. Arranging my mother's funeral by myself at 24 years old because no one would help me. Going less than a month later, putting myself BACK in that man's house so that I could make sure that the kids had a good Christmas even though they lost their mom the same month. And listening to him tell me that I f***** up my mother's funeral AND the kids Christmas. Listening to him tell Melinda and Michael and everyone else who would listen that I never did anything for my mother. Dealing with my whole family turning against me after she died, like I wasn't a member of the family anymore because she was gone. Bringing my brother and sister to live with me when he kicked them out a year after she died. At the age of 25 taking on a 15 and 12 year old to raise the best I could with no help from their father or anyone else in our family.

Yep.....it's been a piece of cake for me my whole life....why did I never see that before?

I'm sorry, guys. I didn't mean to go off like that. Ironically enough, this is a really happy time in my life....lol! But I have rambled on long enough....I will save the happy news for tomorrow....hopefully I will feel better about life tomorrow. lol....I'm not sure what happened tonight to put me in this mood.

Giveaway....

2008-01-31T13:42:00.000-06:00

http://journals.aol.com/dasajam1/there-goes-my-mind..../#Entry336

Go check this out!!! She's doing a giveaway....and she seems so sweet!!!!! I'm gonna start getting alerts for her!

Aggravated....VERY aggravated!

2008-01-28T14:31:00.000-06:00

Okay...I am very irritated. I didn't bring any lunch today to work, because I knew that I had a big bag of potato chips up here, along with some bread and miracle whip. So I was going to fix me a potato chip sandwich for lunch. (I know, it sounds gross, but it is really good!) I am beyond broke these days, don't get paid until Friday, already have bounced checks, and can't afford to go and buy something to eat. So....I get to work, lunchtime comes, and I decide to fix my sandwich.....and my freaking chips are gone! Someone just came up here, got them, and ate them. Like they were freaking community property or something! What the hell??? I am SO MAD! So now, I am hungry, and have no way to get anything to eat. But SOMEONE else does not have that problem because they ATE MY LUNCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Of course, let's add to that the fact that my sister called me while I was finishing up the above part of this post just to start shit with me. Now, why, oh why, would she call me at work (40 minutes away) to tell me she needs tampons and she is hungry? I found someone to get her some tampons, and she said she was going to send my brother to sonic to get them a burger. Well, now my brother won't go to Sonic....so I told her to ask the person bringing the tampons to do it. She said "I don't even know what I want to eat, I don't know what I can afford." I said, "Well, Melinda, how much money do you have?" And she proceeds to tell me that she knows how much money she has and she can handle it! And that it won't be the first time she didn't eat! Like somehow that is my fault?! And why am I not allowed to know how much money she has??? She gets money from me CONSTANTLY, but I am not allowed to know how much money she has????

And then, let's add another thing to it! Donna, this lady I work with, always feels the need to jump in the middle of MY business! I am responsible for giving out nomex suits to our drivers, so why is Donna interrupting ME to tell the drivers how to wash the suits and shit??? And then she proceeds to tell me it is hot and go to MY thermostat and turn the air on?!?!?! SHE has an office, SHE has a thermostat.........so why is she screwing with MINE?!?!?!?!

I'm sorry for all of that...I am just so mad! And on top of that all the shit I got from Melinda and Michael's dad on Saturday!!!!?????? I just don't know how much more of this I can take!!!! I am at my wit's end!!!! So I had to get a little bit of it out before I exploded at work, lol!

Thanks for listening!

Okay, kelly is making me do this, too!

2008-01-28T01:36:00.000-06:00

Okay, now I am making an entry in my LesMis79@aim.com journal through my cassaundraf1@aol.com name! I am SO excited that I can do this now! I have had the aim name for a long time now (like ten years, as kelly felt the urge to point out to me just now), and that is what I started my journal as. Well, then I got my aol account and it wouldn't let me put it in the LesMis name! So I had to make up a new one....and couldn't journal from the new one in my LesMis journal! I was VERY upset about it! But Kelly (yep...we're still on the phone! lol! I am SOOO TIRED! But she won't let me go to bed until I do all the things she wants me to do on AOL! LOL!) showed me how to connect the two! So now, sometimes I will be making entries as LesMis and sometimes i will be making entries as Cassaundraf1....but they will both be me! LOL! Just so ya'll all know and aren't confused!

Kelly's making me do this! LOL!

2008-01-28T01:24:00.000-06:00

I haven't made an entry in SOO long! I am so busy at work, I can't even remember my name half the time, lol! But I am on the phone with Kelly right now and she wants me to learn how to put music on my journal...so she is making me do it right now, LOL!

Well, I've been gone a few days...update ahead...lol

2008-01-17T12:53:00.000-06:00

Okay, I've been gone a few days, so I decided to make the time at work to hop on here today and update ya'll. It has been a LOONG week, let me tell you!

Well, my brother has gotten into some trouble again. I don't remember if I've told ya'll, but he got in with the wrong crowd and had to spend a year in boot camp because of what he did. Well, he's done it again. He got arrested for criminal mischief on Sunday, then they had to take him before the JP on Monday to REALLY take him into custody, because he is a juvenile. The PO decided to hold him in juvie until he could have a detainment hearing. We had that yesterday, and they sent him home and gave him a lawyer for the real hearing. We still don't know when that is. But, I can say that his lawyer sounds like he wants to fight for him and win.....I just wish I knew whether or not him getting out of this charge was the best thing for him!! I mean, it's not a really BIG thing that he did....it is just being turned into a big thing by the people in authority who already know his previous record. The law enforcement in my town is SO corrupt! It's horrible! I hate them! I don't know. There's a lot of background there, and if I haven't told it to ya'll yet, then I'll just have to fill ya'll in another time....I am too wore out to go into it all right now.

I have made a big decision in my life. It started with the job I was telling ya'll about (the one I STILL haven't heard anything on!!). Actually applying for that job was, I think, a turning point in my life, along with my brother getting in trouble again. I have decided that I am not going to settle for living in a town I hate, working at a job that gives me so much stress that sometimes I worry about my health, all for two ungrateful kids! SO...I'm not doing it anymore. I am looking for a job in the Dallas area, and have sent out almost 40 resumes (thanks to the wonderful world of technology, I can look up jobs on craigslist and send resumes out in seconds!). I haven't heard anything on any of the good ones. I heard back from some people about some work-at-home stuff that I would LOVE to do, but I am wary. I don't want to get screwed over by a scam. I know that there are legitimate work-from-home opportunities out there, I am just afraid the ones I go for won't be the legitimate ones! LOL! If anyone reads this and works from home legitimately, or knows someone who does, information would be greatly appreciated!

I have also taken a few steps toward looking for housing in that area. I have talked to two real estate agents about buying and renting, and they are looking for me. I am also looking for myself. Below is a pic of the house in Rockwall that I would LOVE to buy! I haven't even seen the house in person, but I LOVE it! It just looks like the kind of house I want to be in! See at the front, the big porch? Just right for a porchswing like my granny used to have! And it looks like just the right kind of house to have a white picket fence around it! (Of course, Kelly says that in Rockwall you have to get approval to put a fence up....but I am willing to go through whatever channels I have to! LOL!)

I am just sick and tired of doing what I think is best for EVERYONE else, and it turning out all wrong anyway! I want to do something for ME! I know that I should probably put more thought into this....especially with the kids and all....I'm just worried that I might talk myself out of it! LOL!

So that's my update....hopefully it won't be so long between posts next time! LOL!

Well, no news yet...

2008-01-12T23:38:00.000-06:00

Well....I haven't gotten any response yet to my email about the writing job. I am trying to stay optimistic, though.....maybe there's no response because their offices are closed on the weekends!

I'm so worried about it! I just want this job SO bad! BUT....I do know that I shouldn't hang all of my hopes on just one thing, because I am bound to get disappointed that way. So...I spent some time today responding to some more ads for writing jobs. I know that it's kind of crazy to do something like that....I mean, really....I don't have ANY experience writing...I am NOT a professional writer....but I LOVE writing!!! And everyone had to start somewhere...right?

I don't know. I am trying not to be negative.....but it is so hard!!! There are SO many things I want to do with my life....I have SO many dreams....and this is the first chance I have had to actually explore one of them! I'm sure that's why this job has become SO important to me....it is a symbol of all of the things I want in my life, but don't have the freedom to go out and get.

Well, thanks you guys for being here to listen to me ramble, lol!

Interesting....very interesting.....

2008-01-12T23:09:00.000-06:00

Hmmm...these questions made me think a lot about who I am....I liked it......

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Oh my gosh! This is SO weird!

2008-01-12T23:02:00.000-06:00

Okay...this is weird...Ryan and I have talked about each of us getting each other's names tattooed on our ring fingers, under where our wedding bands would go. I think it is sweet and romantic and it's something that will be there FOREVER, even if the band isn't...like a permanent sign that we are together.....well, he likes the idea, but he doesn't want to put Cassey (my nickname), he would want Cassaundra (my real name) because he says it fits me better. Well, I came up with the suggestion of using initials...and he said he would have to think about it...cause it wouldn't mean as much in his opinion....

I took this quiz..."What tattoo should you get?" and JUST LOOK at the results!!!! WOW!

You Should Get a Tattoo of Initials

Modern and expressive
You're proud of who you are (or who you love)!

What Tattoo Should You Get?

How weird and crazy is that?!?!?!?!?

What my nickname "Cassey" means....lol

2008-01-12T22:53:00.000-06:00

Can ya'll tell I am bored? LOL! I am on the phone with Kelly, waiting for PSP to download on my computer so she can teach me how to use it, and mine is downloading slower than hers, lol! So here is another one!

What Cassey Means

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

What my name "Cassaundra" means....

2008-01-12T22:50:00.000-06:00

Got it from Kelly, who got it from Terri, who got it from Lisa (who I don't know either, lol)!

What Cassaundra Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Well, I emailed it....no news yet....

2008-01-11T15:34:00.000-06:00

Well, I emailed it..... I felt like I was going to when I pushed the send button!!!! But it is emailed.....I sent it at 9:24 a.m. I am SOOOO about this!!!!!! I know I shouldn't be....if I get the job, then that is great.....but if I don't, then nothing changes! It's not like I am unemployed and NEED the job....I don't NEED it to survive....but wow....how much benefit would there be to having this job?!?!?!?!

The money....definitely....it's almost double what I am making now! AND, if I could somehow manage to do both jobs at the same time for a little while....I could manage to get out of debt AND save up some money! Here's what I am thinking. I am thinking that this is PROBABLY the kind of job you can do from home. Logically, in my opinion, you don't have to be in an office in a certain city to write. So I could, hypothetically, do both jobs for a while. That's $10 an hour (my current job), plus $18 an hour (at the job I am applying for)...that's GREAT!!!

The freedom....especially if it is a job where I can work from home. That is a big thing to me...I would have the freedom to come and go as I please, to not have to be a slave to my boss, my desk, the timeclock....Not have to answer to a "boss"....wasn't I just talking about this in another post, lol! I could live anywhere, move anytime I wanted.... there are just so many freedoms that come with something like this....

It would be something new and different....something that is a challenge, and something that I could enjoy doing much more than simply paperwork and drudgery!

I feel that there are so many possibilities with this that could bring such joy to my life. Opportunities and possibilities and the chance toexplore them....I know that I am hanging a lot of expectations on a job that I really don't know THAT much about....but I see SO much potential there!!!!!!! For SO many things!!! I just want an answer!!!!!!

And that quote, my friends, is why I would like to get this job. I see in it a chance to gain my freedom from many things that make me desperately unhappy....

Keep your fingers crossed!!!

OMG!!!! I want this!!!!

2008-01-10T21:19:00.000-06:00

Okay...so there is this job that Kelly told me about.....she found it online.....I want it SO bad!!!

We are looking for someone that is passionate about writing.

The job entails developing content for hundreds of niche websites. The content we need written MUST be valid and unique. Below is an example of one of our niche sites:

www.findrvinsurance.com

For this site, you'd be writing the content for the home page and state page.

Before applying, please browse through the entire site so you get a better understanding of what we need.

We will pay 18/hr

That is the post.....I want this job so bad....but I think I may be too scared to even apply!!! This could be the job that turns things around for me. This could be the job that helps me make my life what I want it to be! This could be the job that helps me be happy.....finally......

And I am too scared to think of anything to say to them!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What if they say no? What if I'm not good enough? What if it's a scam? What if I get all excited about this, and it doesn't happen?

I know I'll never know if I don't take a chance.....but how do I come up with just the right thing to say to MAKE them hire me???? How, in a simple email, can I convince them that I am the right person for this job???

Edit

Okay....I'm editing this post to share the email I FINALLY wrote with everyone. I decided that the only way to do it was just to do it, and so I did. I am SO worried about it.....and I really wish someone was online who could read it and give me some advice! LOL! But I am not sending it until tomorrow, so please everyone, feel free to give me some feedback.....criticism.....anything!!! LOL!

As I read the post on craigslist advertising this job, I was filled with many mixed feelings.

Curiosity: Are they really looking for someone who just loves to write? Apprehension: Could this be a scam? Excitement: Could this be the job opportunity I have been waiting for all my life? Amazement: Is it fate that I found this post now, when I am considering a change in job, career, and lifestyle?

Potentially, the answer to all four questions could be yes. I'm hoping for just three out of four, because a scam would seriously invalidate the other three possibilities!

I am not including my resume, although I will be happy to send it if it is requested. My resume is full of dull, 9 to 5, drone-type work that I am aching to escape. Don't get me wrong, I take a lot of pride in any job I do. I have never given a company less than my best, simply because it wasn't as exciting as the whip cream on top of my hot chocolate! I wonder, though...shouldn't there be more?

There comes a time in life when a realization is reached. You realize either (A) you are finally employed with a company you are proud of and in a job you like or (B) you have been wasting your time and are desperately unsatisfied. I can feel myself rapidly approaching category B.

When you reach this point in your life and an opportunity is tossed in your lap (or in my case, dropped on your head in the form of an unexpected post online), it's best to take advantage of it. That is what I would like to do; responding to this post is my first step. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to take a chance.

So.......how does it sound?

Fixing to get off work early, thank goodness! LOL!

2008-01-09T12:15:00.000-06:00

Okay....so I was outside my work smoking yesterday, and there is an eighteen wheeler parked across the street...

Now, I work at a trucking company, so seeing an eighteen wheeler at my job is not unusual, LOL!That's where I work, and that's our logo! I like it! The logo....sometimes the job....but most of the time, just the logo....LOL!

Anway, I digress...lol! I was standing outside and saw a truck parked across the street. I looked at the logo, to see what company it was with.....and was AWE-STRUCK!!! I started laughing and almost couldn't stop!!! I had to call the people in my office outside to look at it! Then I snapped some pics and emailed them around to other people in my company! It was HILARIOUS!!! So......here are the pics!

And THESE are our competition!!!!!! LOLOL!!!! Is that not HILARIOUS!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Saturday night...at home alone...bored bored bored!

2008-01-05T22:43:00.000-06:00

Okay, so I just had to perform minor surgery on my computer.... I was SO STRESSED about it! I REALLY thought I had messed something up!!!

You know how they have those regular sized CD's to go in your computer, and then they have the mini ones??

Well, a mini one came with my camera to install the camera program on my computer. I put it in and it got STUCK in my computer!!!!!!!!!!!

So I had to get it out....I was SO SCARED! I just KNEW I was gonna mess it up! But I didn't! AND I got the CD out!!

So now, I am going to share some pics with you all....I have been having fun with my camera....none of them are of me, lol, but here they are!

This is my little brother, Michael....not so little anymore, lol! He is FIFTEEN NOW!!!

This is my little brother's best friend, Josh....ALSO not so little! They are both such cutie patooties!!!

This is the back of my sister Melinda's head.....

This is the back of my sister's head, again..............

And this is the back of my sister's head, with a LITTLE bit of her profile in it! LOL! EVERY time I get the camera out, she turns her back before I can get a pic! I don't understand it! She is SO PRETTY! And SO photogenic!!!! I'll get a good pic of her on here, one day!!!

This is a pic of my sister's pit bull puppy, Budro.....he's SO hyper!

This is my little brother's dog, Holly. She is hyper, too, but she is little enough that we can hold her still! LOL!

She has SUCH a pretty little face! I just love her, when she isn't inside my house making a mess!!!!

And this is my kitty, Marbles! Poor thing, he has had such a rough life! He's a fighter! He is SO territorial! He has beaten up every stray cat and dog in every neighborhood we have lived in!!!

K, that's it for now! I am just so excited to have pics to put up! LOL!

Talk to ya'll later!

I figured out what my problem with work is....

2008-01-03T16:10:00.000-06:00

BOSSES!!!! They are the WHOLE problem!!!!

If it weren't for bosses, work would be GREAT!!!!!!!!

I WOULD LOVE TO DO THIS TO MY BOSS!!!

AND NOT IN A NICE WAY!!!!!

I really need a job where I am my OWN boss!!!!!!!!!!!!! How COOL would that be?! There are SO many things I would LOVE to do....but when you are responsible for more than just YOURSELF, you can't take the chances you could take if you did NOT have responsibilities.....

I love my brother and sister, but I miss being able to follow my whims and chase my dreams.......I miss feeling like I could try anything..........like anything was possible.........

Pics of my tire....

2008-01-03T08:58:00.000-06:00

Alrighty...here are the pics of my tire! How crazy that a little mush in the middle of the road had something in it that SLICED it like this!!!!

This pic looks even worse that the other one does! It shows how deep the slice is! I just don't know how it could have happened!

Well, there ya'll go...my first posted real life pics! All my other pics (I think) have either been icons or pics found online (like of my wedding dress and the chapel)...these are actual real life pics! My first ones! YEAH! LOL!

I'm online at home!!!!

2008-01-02T23:33:00.000-06:00

Well, I am online at home!!! DSL is GREAT!!! I love it!!! I can't believe I am making a journal entry from HOME! I am sitting on my couch, listening to music on my computer and typing up a journal entry! GOD I LOVE RYAN AND DSL!!!! LOL! Ryan for getting me the computer, and DSL cause it is SOOO cool!!!!!!!!!!! LOL! I'm a dork, I know!

Oh....I had a blow-out on my car yesterday....freaking new years day! I have a pic of it I will post later. Here's a warning....if you see something in the road (something dead) that someone else has hit....AVOID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I thought I missed hitting it, but I didn't....and SOMETHING in it (I am assuming a bone) SLICED my tire!!! It SUCKED! We had to wait on the side of the road...then I had to call someone I did NOT want to call to help me...then after I called and she was on her way.....a man stopped and changed it for me! UGH! But it got changed, and that is what matters!

HAPPY LATE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Quiz...I wanted this one by itself!

2007-12-31T14:39:00.000-06:00

LOL! This is just another quiz, but I wanted to put this one all by itself. I LOVE it! Made me feel all warm and melty inside!!!!

You Are Ready to Get Married

You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon
In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work
And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean it
You've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.

Are You Ready To Be A Wife?

Some quizzes...stuff from Kelly's journal....just stuff...

2007-12-31T14:35:00.000-06:00

Alrighty....Kelly put a bunch of these things on her page, and I wanted to take some of them, too....I find it really funny that Kelly and I are so much alike so I thought we would have a bunch that were the same....but the only one that was the same was the Coca Cola one!!! That's so weird to me!!

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern.
A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.
A unique soul like you needs a city that offers everything.
No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

Alrighty, so I belong in London....that sounds like fun! LOL!

You Are 72% Girly

You're a pretty girly chick, and you're not ashamed to admit it (or wear pink).
But you're also practical. You can hang with the guys, as long as they're not too gross!

How Girly Are You?

I KNEW I would be more girly than Kelly!! I just KNEW IT!! LOL!

Your Hair Should Be Purple

Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional.
You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

Hmmm...Very interesting....My hair has actually BEEN purple before!!!

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen
Or lend a shoulder to cry on
You're there through thick and thin
Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Aww! I like this one! Makes me sound SO sweet!!!! LOL!

You Are Coke

A true original and classic, you represent the best of everything you can offer.
Just the right amount of sweet, just the right amount of energy... you're the life of the party.

Your best soda match: Mountain Dew

Stay away from:Dr Pepper

What Kind of Soda Are You?

Well, seeing as how Coke is really ALL I drink...I KNEW that I would be Coke!! LOL!

Your Personality Is Like Ecstasy

You're usually feeling the love for the world around you - you want to hug everyone.
And while you're usually content to sit back and view the world with wonder...
Sometimes you're world becomes very overwhelming and a little scary.

At your best: You're totally buzzing, and every little thing makes you happy.

What people like about being around you: You're a one person party. Dancing, hugging, tons of smiles!

What people dislike about being around you: Once you're done partying, you're pretty exhausted and depressed.

How addicted people get to you: Not very. Though don't take it personally. They still like you!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Hmmm.....Not to sure if I like this one or not! Have to think about it!!

You Are 68% Grown Up, 32% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

WOW....I really thought I was more mature than that! LOL! Guess there is some kid left in me after all!!

What is weird to me is that I really think these fit me pretty well....who would have thought some little made up quizzes would be so accurate!!!

Oh....I forgot to tell everyone...

2007-12-28T16:23:00.000-06:00

I signed up for DSL through my phone company and will be getting my equipment next week! So I will be able to be online at home starting next week! I am SOOO excited about it!!!

I mean...I like having the internet at work........ but I REALLY want to have it at home. If I had it at home I would journal a LOT more often! LOL!

I just wanna scream!!!

2007-12-28T12:04:00.000-06:00

I am SO angry right now. I am SOO tired of being taken for granted and walked all over and treated like crap!!! All I want is a little FREAKING respect, and do I get it??

I wish someone could just explain what is going on in my sister's head! Okay, she is eighteen. I made up a list and sent her and her friend to the grocery store last night. Now, SHE is the one home all day....SHE is the one who has to eat at home....SHE is the one who knows what kind of stuff we have there for her to eat during the day....so when I asked her if there was anything else she could think of that we needed at the store, if there wasn't anything there, she should have said something, right???? Well, she said NO! So SHE and her friend went to the store, and I cooked. Then, after we ate, my sister asked if they could go riding in my car. I said yes, like a , and she came back !!!! THEN, she proceeded to tell me that if she wanted to go with her friends, she was eighteen, WHO was going to stop her?!?! NOW, she just called me AT WORK and griped ME out because there's nothing there for her to eat!!!! I just wanted to say "LOOK, you are EIGHTEEN!! It's not MY responsibility to feed you!!!!!"

And just to set the record straight...there IS food there!!! She just doesn't want to have to wash any dishes or cook it!!!!

Whew.....Christmas......

2007-12-28T09:46:00.000-06:00

Well....Christmas is over.....I know that it's supposed to be a happy time of year and all...but I am SO glad it is over!!! I love the fact that I can buy things for the kids (my brother and sister) and spend time with them and all of that.....but they sure don't make it easy! They don't even act like they appreciate the things I get them, and then they fight and argue every time they are in the same room together!!! It's SO aggravating!

Okay....so I haven't taken ANY pictures with my new camera! How CRAZY is that!? I just haven't really been in the mood for some reason....I am going to try to take some this weekend....

So...I'm kind of depressed....felt that way for more than a week, really...I don't know why.....all I wanna do is sleep....I have been more than thirty minutes late for work for the last two days because I don't want to get out of bed. I don't know what the deal is....

This is what I made for supper last night. It is called Italian Hamburger Deep Dish. It was SOOO good! Here is the recipe:

1	pound lean ground beef
1	teaspoon salt
1/8	teaspoon pepper
1	garlic clove, finely chopped
2 2/3	cups water
2/3	cup milk
1/4	cup butter or margarine
1	teaspoon salt, if desired
2	tablespoons instant minced onion
1	teaspoon dried oregano leaves
2 2/3	cups Betty Crocker® Potato Buds® mashed potatoes (dry)
3	to 4 medium medium tomatoes, sliced
4	ounces mozzarella cheese, shredded or sliced

1.	Heat oven to 350ºF. Grease rectangular baking dish, 11x7x1 1/2 inches. Cook beef, 1 teaspoon salt, the pepper and garlic in 10-inch skillet over medium heat, stirring occasionally, until beef is brown; drain.
2.	Heat water, milk, butter, 1 teaspoon salt, the onion and oregano to boiling in saucepan. Remove from heat. Stir in dry potatoes just until moistened. Let stand about 30 seconds or until liquid is absorbed. Whip with fork until as fluffy as you'd like. Spread half of the potato mixture on bottom of baking dish. Layer with beef and half of the tomatoes. Top with remaining potatoes and tomatoes; sprinkle with cheese.
3.	Bake uncovered about 30 minutes or until hot and bubbly.
High Altitude (3500-6500 ft) Bake about 35 minutes.

I just have to say that I LOVED it! AND BOTH kids loved it, which is a real surprise because my sister is REALLY picky!!! My brother will eat anything...but my sister is a problem eater! I was a little worried about it when I was putting the mashed potatoes in the pan, because they were kind of dry and sticky...but once it was baked it turned out GREAT!!! I used diced tomatoes (out of a can) instead of sliced ones, and large chopped onion instead of minced (for the ones who wanted to pick it out! lol!), and I used cheddar instead of mozzerella cheese.....it was GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!! I will DEFINITELY be making it again!!!

Ya'll should DEFINITELY try it! it was GREAT!

OH my gosh!!! Early Christmas presents!!!

2007-12-20T13:16:00.000-06:00

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So....Ryan's mom called me yesterday while I was at work and told me she wanted me to come by her house and pick something up....she'd gotten me an early christmas present! She is always trying to buy me stuff....and I love her, but it drives me CRAZY! I am just NOT the kind of person who is comfortable when other people buy them things!!! She always says..."It is my money, and I have the money to do it, so just let me!!!" But it still makes me feel bad when she buys me stuff! But I have to say.....I LOVE the present she got me!!!! SHE GOT ME A DIGITAL CAMERA!!!!!!

Now....this isn't the exact one she bought me, but it looks pretty close.....I am SOOO EXCITED ABOUT IT! Now, she didn't get me a memory card for it, because she thought it came with it.........but I can get one of those fairly cheap at WalMart, so I'm not worried about it! I LOVE MY PRESENT!!!! Now I just have to buy a memory card and I am all set!!!!!

Now...the big surprise!!!!!!!!! Ryan called his mom's house while I was there and asked her to go ahead and give me my present from him early, too!!!!! Oh my lord, ya'll are NEVER going to guess what it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was in SOOO much shock! I didn't even know what to say........my mouth was just hanging open...........I was TOTALLY SPEECHLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE GOT ME A COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is what it looks like....(It's not my ACTUAL one...I got this pic off of the dell website! LOL!) I am SOO excited about it! Now I just need to get DSL, and I will be all set!!!

LOLOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

K.....I'll be back later....just wanted to share that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Update on my life...Ryan...Christmas...wedding....work....everything!

2007-12-19T15:51:00.000-06:00

Okay....so big news here! Ryan got a transfer to Florida!!!! So he is in Florida now, instead of Arizona! That is SOOO much closer!! Yeah...he's not really a Florida boy, just cause he lives there....but he's close enough!!! He called me Saturday morning to let me know he got there okay.....I'm so glad he's there! I could DRIVE to go see him!!!!

Okay.....so the kids are driving me CRAZY!!!! (my brother and sister, I mean...) I am trying to figure out how to have enough money to get them what they want for Christmas (which is going to be hard for me where my sister is concerned anyway, because she wants clothes....lots of clothes!), and they keep wanting money for other things! AND NOTHING IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH!!!!

And that right there is how I feel at work every day! These people are enough to drive me BATTY!!! It's honestly not the job....it's the people here! I'll have to go more in depth into this another time....but basically it boils down to people wanting to (A) micromanage, (B) tell me how to do my job, when they don't know how to do it, and (C) everybody wanting to be the freaking boss!!!! There are too many bosses and not enough workers.....there is an old saying about that, but I can't remember what it is....it's really funny, too.......if any of ya'll know, please let me know!!! LOL! Okay, I remember...I think....is it "Too many chief's and not enough indians"??? Well, that's the way it is here...everybody wants to be the boss, and nobody wants to do the work....but they want to tell ME how to do it!!!!

Okay, so......while we don't have a wedding date set, and the only thing I really know is that it is going to probably be in 2009, I'm still very excited about it!!! And now that I know how to add pics in here, I am going to put some stuff in here about my wedding!!! So.....................I think I've already showed it to ya'll, a long time ago....but HERE'S MY DRESS!!!:

And....from another angle...............

And here are closeups of the details of the dress.....

ISN'T IT GORGEOUS!?!?!

I absolutely LOVE it!!! I fell in love with it from the first minute I saw it! And I haven't wavered at all.....THIS is the dress I want!!!

Okay....gotta get back to this horrible thing I call my job.....

Stay tuned for updates!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-19T09:28:00.000-06:00

Lets101 - Online Dating

I LOVE THIS ONE!!!!

2007-12-11T17:24:00.000-06:00

Okay, I promise tomorrow I will add real entries! LOL! But these things are SO fun!

You Will Be an Unconventional Bride!

You're probably the type of girl who never considered getting married - until you met *him*
You're not a big fan of white dresses, church weddings, or cheesy DJ's
That's okay - you'll do it your way... whether that means a Vegas wedding or guys as bridesmen
While you may not toss the bouquet (or have anyone to toss it to), it will still be the most romantic day of your life!

What Kind of Bride Will You Be?

I think this is perfect for me!!!!! My goal is to be as unconventionally traditional as I can! And once again, this thing was creepy accurate! I NEVER wanted to get married, until I met R! And I do want to do it MY way, and MY way may not be the MOST conventional, but it'll be great!!!! I can't WAIT to get married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good girl or bad girl? TOO FUNNY RESULTS!!!!

2007-12-11T17:19:00.000-06:00

You Are a Bad Girl

You are 30% Good and 70% Bad
You're a total bad girl, from your wild hair to tattooed toes.
But you're too badass to even care if you're labeled "bad"!

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Oh my lord!!! This is TOOO funny!!!! Kelly! Would you have EVER thought that these would be MY results on a good or bad quiz?!?!

I can't even picture myself as a bad girl! LOL!

Ugh...Tuesday....

2007-12-11T12:33:00.000-06:00

Well, it's Tuesday, I guess....

Well, not coffee...lol....I don't drink coffee....but coca cola, lol!!! I can't wake up without it!

Okay, so I worked TWELVE HOURS yesterday, and I am SO beat....I swear that is all I do these days. If I am not working, then I am at home reading a book.... Of course, there is cooking, laundry, and cleaning, which I have to admit, I don't do too often. I assign a lot of that to the kids! LOL! But that's it. I have NO life, and I am really starting to realize that! I mean, when I had all that stress over losing the two good friends I had in my town, I remember thinking that it wouldn't be that bad....but it really sucks! I mean, I still have Kelly, of course...but she's in Dallas, so I can't just hop up and go to her house anytime I want to! LOL!

That icon really sums up pretty much how I feel about not having those two in my life anymore....but how crazy is it that I REALLY miss people who NEVER existed?! I miss being able to call up my friend (now ex-friend) Melissa, and just talk for hours! Just talking about nothing really..... And riding around in the middle of the night because there was nothing else to do, just talking.....

And you know what I miss most about Melissa? This is going to make me sound SOOOO weird.... I really miss being able to get together with someone I REALLY trusted...and just CRYING! She and I used to go riding in the truck, find somewhere we could just park and hang out, and we would talk about everything in our lives that upset us and made us cry! How crazy is that? LOL!

But it always made us both feel better! You know, picking at the wounds in your life doesn't help most of the time, but sometimes, when you just spend hours dwelling on it, and crying it out....it makes it hurt less.....and that is really what I miss most about my friendship with Melissa. We could talk things to death and cry on each other's shoulders until the truck was full of tears.....and then we felt better!

Okay....that entry was NOT supposed to be about Melissa...I have no idea where that all came from......

I'll be back later......

Cassey

Wow...this is so accurate...it's creepy!!

2007-12-11T09:15:00.000-06:00

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional.
You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it.
You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out.

Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable.
Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there.
You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

Wow...really creepy....this is so accurate it's scary! Where do they come up with this stuff!?!?!?!

Hmmm...I'm just baby evil!!! LOL!

2007-12-11T09:11:00.000-06:00

You Are 42% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.
Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

Not bad.....lol!

Going private...

2007-12-10T11:08:00.000-06:00

Hey everyone! I just wanted to let everyone know that I am going to make my journal private.

Kelly is on the phone with me right now and said that I need to send out this alert first, so that anyone who wants to continue reading my journal can email me so that I can add them! Email me at cassaundraf@gmail.com if you want to continue reading my journal once I go private!

Thanks everyone!

love and hugs!

Cassey

2007-12-06T15:55:00.000-06:00

Okay, everyone! Here’s the update on the proposal!!!!

Ryan and I were sitting together, it was kind of dim, the lights were low, and the Christmas tree was right in front of us. So we were sitting there, side by side, his arm around me, holding hands, with my head leaning on his chest and his chin on top of my head, looking at the Christmas tree and talking. We got quiet for a few minutes, just enjoying the fact that we were able to spend some time snuggled up, sitting in front of a Christmas tree….practically having a “normal couple” moment!

Now, something you all have to know is that R is VERY traditional. He has always said that no matter how much he wants to just go ahead and do it, he can’t propose to me officially until he has talked to my closest male relative and asked him for my hand in marriage. Which I have to say is REALLY sweet….but give me a break!! LOL! He wants to follow tradition, and I just wanna be officially engaged!!!! LOLOLOL!

So……..we are sitting there, being “normal”, watching the lights on the Christmas tree sparkle…..and he kissed the top of my head and he said “Cassey, I love you so much. You make me feel like I can do anything, be anything in this world that I want to be. You make me want to be a better man, simply because you deserve to have that man. You have picked me up when I was at my worst, you have stood by me through thick and thin….even when I didn’t make it very easy for you to stay. When you came into my life I thought that out of everyone in the world, 99% of them weren’t worth the effort of knowing.…..but you help me see the good. My life is not complete without you in it. I know I said I was going to wait…..nothing about our relationship has been traditional, and I wanted this to be…but you deserve more than that. I know it bothers you that I haven’t asked you officially, and you deserve to have that….we both do. So, I’m asking you, officially….Cassey, will you marry me?”

OMG!!!!!!!! HOW freaking ROMANTIC was THAT?!?!?!?!?!?!It was GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love him SO much…..I can’t WAIT to become his wife!!!!!!!!!!!

__________________

2007-12-05T17:10:00.000-06:00

Okay...I don't have much time on here right now, because it is the end of my workday and I will be leaving in ten minutes............

but.......

I have big news that I just HAVE to share TODAY!!!!!!

Well......

R PROPOSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The fact that we are going to get married is something we have known for a long time, but he has not ACTUALLY proposed to me because he is REALLY traditional about things like that, and so he wanted to talk to my closest male relative before he did......but Sunday he told me he wanted to make it official............and he PROPOSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Of course, I said yes! LOL! DUH!

Anyway, like I said, I really have to get to get going, it's almost five, but I just HAD to share that with all of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Continuing the Journey

Feeling kind of off....

Terrible Twos my ass! More like Terrible Threes!

Hello to all my faithful followers...

Link to My New Blog and a Preview

The Beginning

Thanksgiving is over!

OH MY LORD....FIVE MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!

My first conference call!!!!

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Calling all readers and advice givers....

An update for everyone who knows Kelly....

Oh my goodness! How cute!

EVERYBODY COME LOOK AT MY NEW LAYOUT!!!

New Layout Coming Soon!!!

Oops!

This SUCKS!!!!

WHOO HOO! I was tagged!

Be back tonight!

HMMM....I have noticed something about my blogs....

OMG! This is going to be a HORRIBLE day!

Sick Sick Sick....

Temper Tantrum Tuesday (On Wednesday)

Frugal Fridays!

One down, one to go!

UGH! Have you ever tried to book a flight on the airline's website???

LOL! THIS is how I feel when I go to work every morning!!! LOL!

Tuesday Tantrums

Not Me Monday! and some ranting worries...

Live Signature

GRRR....I suck at this!!!

Golly! Update time!

Update on car and job....

*sigh* One of those days.....

OOOPS! Mess up on link!

OMG!!!!! So cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH! By the way....

Got the quotes....

No Quote Yet....

UGH! It just gets worse and worse!

Uh-oh....bad news from the brakes man...

Back to the office...

Wow....

I got an award!!!

Buffy Personality Test.....

Dawn Summers

Working, working, working....

You Are a Doris!

MY FIRST POST AS A BLOGGER, NOT A JOURNALER!

Recipe for Cow Pot

Exactly how I feel about immigration:

Wow.....things have been rough here.....

Taking a step....

Irked at work!

Trying again....

Shawn Mayer....

AMAZING NEWS! Some good, some bad...

Wow....interesting trip! LOL!

Okay....longer update...I can't believe I have been gone so long!!!!!!!!!!!!!

another short update!

a poem (hehehehe)

UGH! Can't trust anybody! LOL!

ooopssss

Finally making an entry....

Some catching up stuff...

okay...so i'm a follower....

wow...it's been a LONG week!

I am just tired, folks.....

Giveaway....

Aggravated....VERY aggravated!

Okay, kelly is making me do this, too!

Kelly's making me do this! LOL!

Well, I've been gone a few days...update ahead...lol

Well, no news yet...

Interesting....very interesting.....

Oh my gosh! This is SO weird!

What my nickname "Cassey" means....lol

What my name "Cassaundra" means....

Well, I emailed it....no news yet....

OMG!!!! I want this!!!!

sigh One of those days.....