Continuing the Journey

OH MY LORD....FIVE MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-03T12:59:00.002-05:00

Oh my lord....it has been five months since I have posted in my blog!!!!!!! That is CRAZY! But, to be fair, it has been a crazy five months, lol. I have gone back to work for that horrible woman and then quit again several times, and I have actually started exploring writing possibilities. I have been writing web content for a while for a couple of different companies and I think I am ready to get serious about my writing.

So......how has every body been??? I haven't been able to read blogs anymore than I have been able to write in mine! LOL! But I promise I will keep up with it a LOT better now!

Love you all, and thanks for all of the support you have all shown me!

My first conference call!!!!

2009-04-02T19:19:00.002-05:00

Hey there....Just checking in. I guess I should clarify to everyone that I walked out last week on Tuesday, not yesterday. I was just re reading that last post and realized that it made it sound like I just walked out yesterday, lol! I walked out on Tuesday and then spent Wednesday, Thursday, and part of Friday trying to consider all of my options and figure out what I REALLY wanted to do, and what I COULD do.

I decided that I REALLY want to give the working from home as a loan processor thing a shot. I called the lady who was trying to hire me (Sandy), and told her on last Friday that I wanted to do it. I have decided that now is the time to really do what I want to do. I mean, what can it hurt? I can give it two months, and if it doesn't work out, then I will move on and get a regular office job. But I really want to do this. I have wanted to work from home for years, and have never been able to find a job that wasn't a scam. So now I have this opportunity, and I want to take it. So I have made lots of phone calls to introduce myself to the other loan officers (besides Sandy, of course, lol), and I had my first conference call this past Tuesday.

SO let me tell you about this conference call. It started at 10 a.m. I woke up at 9:45 a.m. I let my dog outside, I went to the bathroom, and I went back into my bedroom. I then got my notebook out, and my pen. I then smoked a cigarette and read my book until 9:59 a.m. At 9:59 a.m., I dialed into the conference call. I then spent the next two hours listening to what was being said, smoking cigarettes, taking notes....all from the comfort of my bed, in my pajamas!!! How flipping cool is that? LOL! I also made contacts with some of the other loan officers, and I have already been promised three files! Plus, Sandy should have at least another five this month that she wants me to work on, PLUS everyone who works under Sandy will be sending their files to me, too! I am SOOO excited about this!

Anyway, like I said, I'm just checking in and giving ya'll an update....Wish me luck!

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-01T16:21:00.002-05:00

I did it! I quit! I just walked out!!!!

Well, I didn't JUST walk out... I did say a couple of things that I probably shouldn't have. But compared to all of the things that I WANTED to say, I thought I was pretty grown up about it! LOL! Okay, here's what happened:

First, she spent the ENTIRE morning yelling and bitching at me (but that's normal, lol!). Then she got a phone call. The phone call was from the internet company that provides service to her house. (Let me insert here that my first job at the company where I was a LOAN PROCESSOR was to get internet service set up at her house.) They called and asked to speak to me (since I was the person who set it up), because the bill had not been paid. So she called me into the office and said "Do you have internet at your house?" And I said, "No." (And I DON'T!) and she said "Uh-huh." So I started to walk out of the office, and she said "NO, you stay RIGHT there!" Then she got back on the phone and said, "What is the billing address on that account?" (She had them on speaker phone.) They told her the work address, so she said, "And what is the address where the service is set up?" And they told her the work address again. Then she asked me who the company was. So I told her that they were the company that provided service to her house. She said, "Oh. Okay, go tell Sam to come here." She HONESTLY thought that I was getting internet service at my house and billing it to the company! So at that point, she had already questioned my intelligence and my job performance....now she was questioning my integrity! I was walking a fine line at that point. Then she went back into her office and proceeded to degrade me and my job performance to one of our lenders for twenty minutes. Then she called me into her office and berated me for almost 30 minutes, including about why I had not faxed what are called "hard numbers" to our lender (hard numbers that SHE had created and not told me were done), then she said the thing that was my final straw. She said "I have 100 resumes for secretaries who would love to have this job and communicate with me, and do your job with the intelligence that you don't." That was it for me. I was done. I told her maybe she needed to call one of those people, and I walked out of her office while she was bitching at me. She said "HELLO?!" I said, "Marci, I am done, I quit, I can't take it anymore." She said "That's fine, just great, you do what you have to do." And I said, "And you can fax your hard numbers yourself." She said "I would love to!" And I said, on my way out the door, "And you can kiss my ass while you are at it." And I walked out. I was crying so hard when I got in my car that I couldn't even drive. It was a very dark, rainy day, but after I sat in my car for a couple of minutes, the clouds parted and the sun shone down into my car....lol! It was like a movie or something! And at that point, I quit crying, and drove away. I have felt SO much better about life ever since!

I have made the decision to take the other loan processing job that I was offered that I talked about in my last post. The one working from home. I have got everything figured out to where I will be good for the next two months with no paycheck (although I hope to have a paycheck much sooner than that! LOL). I am getting my income tax back, and it will be enough to pay my rent and bills for the next two months, plus get a new laptop, because I am going to need one. I am also watching a friend's daughter instead of her going to daycare during the week, so I have a little bit of income every week. I am so excited about all of this! I talked to a few of the people that I am working with already, and I have been promised three files by the end of the week, which is MUCH sooner than I expected. AND, my name has been added to the employee roster on the company website already!!! How COOL is that?! I am SOOO excited! I feel like this is the EXACT thing that I was supposed to do at this EXACT time in my life!!!

Thanks for listening! Wish me luck!!!!

Calling all readers and advice givers....

2009-03-23T10:31:00.003-05:00

Okay, I have tried really hard to stay away from posts about my job, because for a while those are the only posts I was doing. But I am to my wits end at this point, so I have to blog about it.

I have never been more unhappy in my life. I have taken verbal abuse, name calling, screaming, constant derrogatory comments about my intelligence, and various threats regarding my pay for the last 3 and a half months. I have cried, I have tried to talk to her reasonably about why I can't work this way, I have tried to ignore it, I have tried to laugh it off, and I have tried giving as good as I got and yelling back at her. Nothing seems to make any difference.

The sad thing is, I really love my job. People come to us who have never owned a home before, who have bad credit and low income, who have no one else to turn to. I love the feeling I get from helping these people to own their own home for their family. It is an amazing feeling to know that I can help someone like that. But I can't handle being treated the way I am.

I have started taking two, sometimes three, pills a day for my acid reflux now. I am always tired. I moved in December, and still haven't gotten everything unpacked from my house, because I just don't have the energy to do it. I constantly have an upset stomach, and when it isn't upset, all I do is eat and smoke. I never go to Kelly's house anymore, I don't do anything but sit at my house. I haven't even written to Ryan in months. I cry almost every day, whether it is at work while I am taking a smoke break, or after work when I get home.

I got a job offer doing practically the same thing I am doing now, just on the lender's side, not the buyer's side. I would be working from home, and I would be making commission, but on average based on past performance, it would be more than I am making now. The problem is that it would take 30 to 45 days with no income before I got up and running. I would give ANYTHING to have the chance to do this, but I don't know how I could possibly go that long with no income. I am working on a plan...but I don't know if it is going to work.

I just don't know what else to do at this point. I can't handle going through this anymore, but I can't be unemployed or not have income, either. *sigh* I don't know what to do..... Any advice? It would be GREATLY appreciated!

An update for everyone who knows Kelly....

2009-03-12T16:40:00.002-05:00

For everyone who knows Kelly over at Green Olives and Pickle Juice.....

As I am sure you know already, her biological dad passed away on Monday. She has her adoptive dad and her biological dad. Her biological dad lived in Arizona and had a heart attack Monday.

I feel for her, having just lost my own biological dad, and wish her all my sympathies for her loss. She found out right before we left work on Monday, and she was a wreck. I took her home and stayed with her until her husband got home from work. She left on Tuesday afternoon on a plane going to Arizona. I have talked to her every night since. She was going to come back on Friday, but the service isn't until 2:30 p.m. Friday, and the last plane on her airline leaving Phoenix leaves at 5:30 p.m., so she isn't going to make that flight. She is going to be leaving Phoenix at 5:00 a.m. instead.

She seems to be doing okay. She is helping her step-mother pack the house up, because Marilynn (the step-mother) says she can't stay in that house with him gone. So Kelly is keeping busy, and that is the best thing for her right now I think. She will call me again tonight and I will update you all again tomorrow.

Please keep her and her family in your thoughts and prayers. Between Kelly and I, we have had more deaths in our families in the past five years (starting in 2003 with my mother) than anyone else we know. Death is a hard thing to deal with, and a hard thing to get past.... We all do it in our own way and our own time. Kelly is a lot stronger than she gives herself credit for, and she will get through this. It will NEVER be okay....I always hate it when people tell me that it is....but it will get easier.....

Love you Kelly!

Oh my goodness! How cute!

2009-03-12T16:25:00.005-05:00

Oh my goodness! Look what was in my inbox today!!!

How absolutely adorable is that?! Now first of all, who would create a pig that small just for the heck of it? I don't know, but since they did, I want one! The little snippet that was in my email with the pics said that they are really easy to house train, and you should always get two, not just one, because then they have company. I could handle having two of these! They are so flipping adorable!

I don't know how well that would go over with my dog, though. LOL! Can you imagine being the only pet in a house and all of a sudden having to share your space and your owner with two pigs that are WAY to tiny to really be pigs? LOL! My puppy would probably bust a gut laughing at these two little guys! She poops bigger than these fella's! I can just see the look on her face now....I can hear her thoughts....."Um...Ma.....if this is supper, I think you got the wrong kind, cause this is still moving!" "Mom, seriously.....these aren't even big enough to chew on! What good are they?!"

*sigh*...but they are cute, aren't they?!

EVERYBODY COME LOOK AT MY NEW LAYOUT!!!

2009-03-12T15:49:00.004-05:00

Oh how gorgeous is this!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Kori, you are AMAZING! I absolutely LOVE IT! I am just blown away! I can't believe you took my little vague description and turned it into this!

EVERYBODY COME LOOK AT MY NEW LAYOUT!!!

New Layout Coming Soon!!!

2009-03-06T16:21:00.004-06:00

I am SOOO excited! Princess is designing me a new layout!

I have wanted a new layout for a long time, but I am NO good at that stuff, and I couldn't find one that really just grabbed me. So then Kelly got a new layout designed for her by Princess, and it was AWESOME! So I got in touch with Princess via her blog (which is linked on her name above in the first sentence. Go check it out!), and BEGGED her to use her amazing talents to design a layout for me! And she has DONE IT! There are a couple of things that I asked her to tweak for me (just personal preference kinds of things, not technical things, lol!), and hopefully I will be getting it soon!

I am SOOO excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oops!

2009-02-27T18:00:00.002-06:00

It DID post it! It just waited a little while...lol! Nevermind!

This SUCKS!!!!

2009-02-27T17:10:00.004-06:00

This SUCKS! I just did a WHOLE HUGE post on the thing that Princess tagged me on, and I published it, and it didn't publish and now it is GONE!!! Not even saved in my drafts!!! Just GONE! So, now I have 45 minutes to do it again, and try to remember all the witty smart things I said! LOL!

WHOO HOO! I was tagged!

2009-02-27T10:46:00.000-06:00

Okay, how exciting is this?! I was tagged, so I have something else to talk about!!! Big huge hugs and thanks to Princess!!!!

So here's the deal:
"Your ship has sunk. You have, of course, been stranded on adeserted island. You have salvaged a copy of the King James Version of the Bibleand a copy of the complete works of Shakespeare. Nothing else.
“The very next day you find one of those Arabian Lamps in the sand. Of course, you rub it and, of course, a rather grumpy Genie appears.
“‘Let’s get this straight - there is a recession going on. There are restrictions on the three wishes now. I don’t do water or air transport now so no boats, planes or magic carpets. As for electronics, forget it. There isn’t the infrastructure on this island.
“‘I can let you have one book and I mean one VOLUME, one essential item and one luxury item. Now hurry up and make your choices, I have to get to those five other islands you are going nominate."

MY BOOK:

K, this one is pretty self explanatory, lol! So I am not going to explain it, I'm just going to let it stand the way it is! :-)

MY ESSENTIAL:

This is an AMAZING invention!!!! I DEFINITELY would have to have one of these on my island! AND, if it is not too much stress on my Genie, I would like to request an unending supply of toothpaste! This is the coolest thing! The toothpaste is INSIDE THE HANDLE!!! So you don't have to carry both, and it's just right there!!! COOL! I am SOO gonna have to get one of these, even if I am not on an island!

MY LUXURY:

I am with Princess on this one. I have GOT to have a bed. My back couldn't take sleeping on the ground, and I need a nice comfy bed! My only difference is that I need THIS bed, because it has the canopy over the top and the drapes, which are thick and lined on the inside with black fabric so that no light comes through! LOL, actually, I think I need one of these in my house, not just on my island! LOL!

Well, those are my wishes! Thanks again to Princess for tagging me on this one! Now, it's my job to tag five other people! Here we go!

1. Kelly - because I NEVER get to tag her before anyone else does, but I think I actually got it this time!

2. Casie - because she is new to blogger land, and she needs to be tagged, and maybe some of you will want to follow her as well!

3. Carrie - because I feel really bad because I am SOOOO busy that I NEVER get a chance to read her blog anymore, or anyone elses for that matter, and she is SOO great!

4. Terri - because, again, I don't ever have time to read her blog, and she is GREAT too!

5. Kadie - because I am SOOOO curious as to what this weird but loveable child will choose!

So there it is! My post, and my tags!

Love you all!

Be back tonight!

2009-02-26T17:42:00.001-06:00

Okay, I have to go home, but I will blog tonight, because I was tagged by Princess, and I have to blog about it!!! :-)

HMMM....I have noticed something about my blogs....

2009-02-25T16:52:00.001-06:00

I have noticed lately that all I do is bitch about work in my blogs.....I'm gonna have to come up with something else to say, lol! Ya'll are going to get really sick of listening to me bitch!!!

OMG! This is going to be a HORRIBLE day!

2009-02-18T11:58:00.002-06:00

I can just see it now. I honestly don't have the time to be blogging right now, but I am cutting out a few minutes to do it.

Things are so crazy right now at work! I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get everything done before my boss gets back in the office, which will be in about 30 minutes or so.

NOTHING is going right with ANY of my files at work....they are all so screwed up and not working right that I am SO ready to just throw them all out the window!

GRR!!! Deep breaths, DEEEEEEP breaths!!! Cross your fingers and wish me luck, because I KNOW that the boss is going to yell at me when she gets back to the office, no matter what I do, she is going to yell at me, so I have pretty much resigned myself to it! LOL!

Sick Sick Sick....

2009-02-16T14:38:00.002-06:00

This was me for the last week. Add a lot of crying, coughing, and sleeping to this pic, and you will know what my week was like. I have been SOOO sick! Kelly kept most of you updated, I am sure, lol....I know that she put a HORRIBLE pic of me in the ER on her blog......I WILL get even with her for that....lol! But I am at work today, feeling better....not great, but much better than I DID feel, so that's good. Unfortunately, I missed my trip. All I did was cry this weekend, every time I thought about the fact that I was supposed to be in Florida, but I was sick in bed in Texas. I still want to cry every time I think about it.

Temper Tantrum Tuesday (On Wednesday)

2009-02-04T13:50:00.003-06:00

I know, I know....I am a day late and a dollar short.....Today is NOT Tuesday, it is Wednesday. So WHY am I doing a Temper Tantrum Tuesday on Wednesday? Well, I have to confess....it's because I was too mad to blog yesterday. I never thought I could say that, but it's true. Hmmm.....but it IS Wednesday....

How about Whining Wednesday? I can do that. LOL! Okay, let the whining begin!

My boss, as you all know, as a bonus, was supposed to give me $500 toward my trip to go see Ryan in Florida on the 13th. I know what you are thinking....yes, today IS the 4th. Yes, there are LESS THAN TEN DAYS before I get on an airplane and leave the big state of Texas on my way to the much smaller state of Florida, where my beloved fiance lives. Let me repeat that: LESS THAN TEN DAYS! I closed my four loans for the month, they have even all funded (which means that she has her money!)! Yet....wait....something is missing.....what is it.....OH RIGHT....my plane ticket! I still don't have one. Or a car reservation, or a hotel reservation. Yes, I spent a lot of time and aggravation and patience online until I got the ABSOLUTE BEST deals possible...since she said she would give me $500 toward my trip, I wanted to get the most for my money. So I found a plane ticket for $275, a car for $121, and a hotel for $113. Which means that the $500 she is giving me for a bonus covers my ENTIRE trip, except for less than ten dollars of it! Then....yesterday.....my plane ticket went up. Now, today, it has gone back down (for now), but that is ENTIRELY not the point! The point that I have been TRYING to make with all of my rambling is this: I STILL DON'T HAVE MY PLANE TICKET, CAR RESERVATION, OR HOTEL RESERVATION!!!! She knows that I am leaving next Friday. She knows that the closer we get to my departure date, the more the plane ticket will go up. She KNOWS that she OWES me this bonus!!! So WHY.....please, if anyone knows the answer to this question feel free to share.....has she not taken care of this?!?!?!?!

*sigh* I am so upset about all of this....I don't know why she can't just stand by her word. I stood by mine, and I closed those four loans for her in January. I earned this trip, and I am GOING on this trip whether she pays for it or not. BUT, if she DOESN'T, then I won't be coming back to this job after I get back. I can't work for someone who doesn't keep their word to me.

Frugal Fridays!

2009-01-30T14:22:00.003-06:00

Okay, I am new to this whole "Frugal Fridays" thing, so hopefully ya'll will give me a little leeway, because I am not sure how it works! LOL! But I am trying! This is a blog carnival that I started reading on Vicki's website. She's a pretty frugal lady! All of the tips I have read so far are great! Click her name and it will take you to the Frugal Friday Carnival page where the rules and regulations are!

So my Frugal Friday tip is this:

If you have a kid who lives away from you (going to college or whatever) that you send money to....do NOT send Western Union or Money Gram! That is SOOO expensive! I have recently learned about this prepaid debit card you can get from Wal-Mart that can be used as a debit or credit card because it has a Visa logo on it! It is called the Walmart Moneycard Student Edition.

When you buy it, it comes with one temporary card. You then have to go home and activate it online. When you activate it, they will ask you for your information and then what name you want on the second card. You can get your name on one and your child's on another. Then you send the one with your child's name on it to them once you get it in the mail. When you add money to YOUR card, they can access it on THEIR card! Pretty cool, huh? :-)

Well, that's my Frugal Friday tip for the day! Hope it helps someone!

One down, one to go!

2009-01-30T12:17:00.002-06:00

Well, we closed one loan this morning! We have one more to close this afternoon and then Kelly and I get our bonuses!!!!! I cannot TELL you how excited I am about this!

So I have been looking for a plane ticket from Dallas, TX, to Tallahassee, FL. My bonus is $500 to go toward my trip. I want that $500 to cover MOST if not ALL of my trip, so I am trying to be as cost aware as I can be. I mean, why should I get a $500 plane ticket then have to pay for the rental car and hotel myself? If I can get the plane ticket, rental car, AND part of my hotel for $500, then I am getting the MOST for my bonus, right?

So I have found a plane ticket on Orbitz for $275, including taxes and fees. AND it leaves for Florida on Friday morning, just like I want it to, and it leaves returning to Dallas on Monday evening, just like I want it to. I have found a rental car deal for $122, including taxes and fees. So that is basically $400. That would mean that I should have $100 left to use toward paying for my hotel. AND, since I am cheap, lol, and I REFUSE to pay outrageous amounts for a hotel room when all I am going to be doing there is watching a little TV and going to sleep, that $100 will pay for almost all of my hotel! I will be staying three nights, and I will be staying in this little rinky dink mom and pop place that I stayed the last time I was there, and it was only $36 a night. So that $100 covers almost all of that, so I will just have to put like $20 in to cover the rest of it! So, if it works out that way, I will be a VERY happy camper! Everybody cross your fingers!!! :-)

UGH! Have you ever tried to book a flight on the airline's website???

2009-01-29T17:31:00.002-06:00

I am doing it right now and it is STUPID! These prices are OUTRAGEOUS!

But I also went to some of the sites like hotwire.com and orbitz.com, and found some decent deals on there.

I know that none of you have any idea what I am talking about, because I haven't mentioned my trip because I don't want to jinx it, but it is almost guaranteed now, so it's time to fill you all in!

I am going to Florida to see Ryan the weekend of Valentines day! I am hoping to leave Friday the 13th in the morning, and come back Monday the 16th in the evening! I am SOOO excited about it! And the best part is, my boss is paying for the trip! That is why I have been so stressed out about closing these four loans this month, because that is my bonus! WHOO HOO! The final two loans are both closing tomorrow! I am SOOO excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL! THIS is how I feel when I go to work every morning!!! LOL!

2009-01-29T10:15:00.004-06:00

2009-01-28T12:12:00.002-06:00

Tuesday Tantrums

2009-01-27T13:43:00.003-06:00

Okay, I got this one from Kelly over at Green Olives & Pickle Juice. This is a GREAT idea! LOL! Especially with the Tuesday I am having!

This icon says it all....she is EVIL INCARNATE! All she has done all freaking day is yell at me! OVER AND OVER AND OVER! And I can't say a freaking word back to her without her her saying "Why the F*** are you doing that, Cassey?! Don't F***ING question me! Just F***ING do it!" "STOP being confrontational with me, Cassey, that is SO disrespectful!" UGH! I am SO tired of it! I have NEVER in my entire LIFE been told that I am confrontational! I am a DOOR MAT! I always have been! But to my boss, if she says "Are you stapling that together??!!?!" and I say "No, I am just stacking it so I can clip it and put it in the file.", THAT is confrontational to her! SHE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!

Now, my sister. *sigh* My sister. I love the fact that she still feels like she should call me if something is wrong. And I love the fact that she knows she CAN call me. But WHY does she call me, tell me what is wrong, ask me what to do, then IGNORE every word I say to her?!?!?!?! What the hell good does it do her to call me if she isn't going to listen to my advice?! She is honestly going to drive me insane one day, I can see it coming! I want to grab her and just SHAKE her! LOL! And she is "grown" now (19) so it's not considered child abuse anymore if I do it! LOLOL!

Then, as if my stress level wasn't high enough, we have my new extended family that I just found out about when I found my biological father. First of all, he was on hospice since September, and no one felt the urge to let me know that information. Second, he passed away, and no one told me for over 24 hours! THEN, when my step-sister finally DID call me, she left a PISSY voicemail saying "Cassey, I just wanted to let you know that MY daddy died last night." Notice the capital MY? Yeah, I noticed it, too. THEN, they decided that I didn't need to be informed of when the funeral was! It was last Friday....and I didn't find out until Thursday, and do you know HOW I found out? KELLY called my step-sister to see if they knew when and where it was going to be so she could send flowers!

Okay, I think I am done now. I have ranted and raved and gotten it all out of my system....hopefully that's all of it! LOL! Thanks for listening!

Not Me Monday! and some ranting worries...

2009-01-26T16:55:00.005-06:00

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Okay, everyone, I am new to this whole "Not Me Monday" stuff, but it sounds like a great idea, so here I am, giving it my best shot!

I did NOT spend most of Sunday in bed after church, instead of unpacking my house and doing laundry!

I did NOT lay my head on my desk at work on Saturday and take a short nap while Kelly (Green Olives & Pickle Juice) finished her work so we could leave!

I ABSOLUTELY did NOT have Kelly call my step-sister last week to find out about my dad's funeral arrangements because I knew if I talked to her it would turn into a SCREAMING match!

I did NOT sit in my bed last night reading a book and eating vanilla ice cream......then cheeto's and ketchup.....then popcorn......I would NEVER do that, even though I was having a REALLY bad night!

And I did NOT (nor would I EVER) think bad, evil, horrible thoughts about my boss when I realized last night that I would have to go BACK to work this morning......nope.....those thoughts were not coming out of MY head!!!

*sigh*

OOH....one more.....I did NOT just get a text message from my future sister-in-law asking me to babysit....and I did NOT just try to think of a lie to get out of it......but *sigh* I WILL be babysitting tonight......I just am NOT in the mood to do this.....but I can't say no....that sucks....

This is how I feel today. This is what this Monday has done to me.

Today is the first day of the last week of January. At work, for the Month of January I am supposed to close four loans. If I close four loans, I get a bonus. My bonus this month is in the form of $500 to use towards a trip to go see my Ryan. My Ryan, whom I haven't seen since the last time I talked here in my blog about going to see him. It's been at LEAST six months. And this month was looking pretty good for us as far as closing the loans goes.....unfortunately, everything has just jumped in the trashcan and set itself on fire. We have already closed two loans, and we have one that I KNOW will close this week. Unfortunately, that fourth one....the one that HAS to close for me to get my bonus.....just might not. EVERYTHING is falling apart on this one....and granted, it IS going to close. I WILL have all the stuff for it TO close....but there is a HUGE possibility that it is NOT going to close this week. Which means that it will close in February, not January, which means I will NOT get my four this month, which means I will NOT get that bonus! Because even if it closes February FIRST, my boss will use that against me as far as my bonus goes.

*sigh*

This has been a bad month.

Live Signature

2009-01-24T12:37:00.001-06:00

I got the link to do this from Kelly over at Green Olives & Pickle Juice! How cool is this signature???

GRRR....I suck at this!!!

2009-01-24T11:12:00.003-06:00

Okay, so I suck at blogging! :-) I just never remember to do it! I am working on getting better, but I just haven't quite made it yet, lol!

A lot has happened lately, the biggest thing being that my biological dad passed away a week ago. I am having a hard time processing it. As those of you who have been reading me for a while know, I didn't know him for most of my life. In fact, I just found him and started talking to him last February. Less than a year ago. I spent four days in Colorado with him, and only today have I realized that those are the only four days I will EVER spend with him. And we didn't talk about ANYTHING! Nothing of any importance, anyway. I just found out from his step daughter that he was a vietnam vet!

*sigh* Yeah....I just can't talk about this right now......